I’m a failure

I’m nearly 23. I’ve been doing this for five years. I’ve been in debt since I was 19. I owe thousands to loan companies, I owe hundreds to friends and family. I’m a gambling addict and I work in a supermarket job I hate. And to top it all off, I was given a lucky break when I got £600 back from a claim against a loan company, not only did I lose that money but I haven’t even paid the £200 fee to the company that won me the claim so that’s probably going to be a whole new issue. Why would I do this to myself over and over again? I’m on the verge of being kicked out my house by my parents. I’m such a failure. I’m signed up to all the blocks. In fact, I even have one of my fake aliases sign up to all the blocks, yet there will always be a work around and I’ll gamble it all away. Every payday for the past year and going forward for another year I have around £80 left in my name. I’m in a debt management plan yet I’ll still try and gamble that small money up into something, but even if I won up to £8000, by week 2 of the month I still won’t be able to afford bus fare. I don’t know what to do anymore. I first came to this forum under a different username when I was like 19, explaining my issues, how I think I’m developing a problem. Some wonderful people reached out to me, sharing stories how they’ve been gambling 20 years, it’s ruined their life, quit while I’m ahead etc. Looks like I’m heading towards that kind of life, plagued by this forever. I’m sorry if I’m not asking a specific question, it’s 1:30am, 3 weeks from payday, I have 25p in my bank because I’ve lost everything, I have payments to make in the next week and I’m feeling down and lonely. Sorry and thank you