i had a particuarly bad week last week work was hard going , car needed to go into the garage , constant miserable weather f**k all to look forward too
you know when you can just feel a relapse building up ? well yea sure enough i found myself in the casino yesterday afternoon i knew what was comming in my head as i walked thorugh the door
staff greeting me with false smiles and "oh where have you been we have seen you in ages"
(id not been there since july 2015) over 7 months ago
same old no hopers and foreingers sat in there with there electric f**s it was like walking back into a time loop
i sit down at the blackjack table and chuck the croupier 200 quid in exchange for a big pile of chips.......i start off confidently and win my first 2 hands thinking to myself ok i get too 400 and im going
that will be enough to see me right for the remainder of the month
theres a couple of chinese sitting next to me playing ridiculosuly large hands as per usual ( i swear theyre able to print money off or something)
the tables flat , theres no converstion no banter no engagement from the croupier nothing , none of us want to be there but were all stuck there through our own devices
im sat there thinking what the f**k are you doing in this dump , whilst mindlessly repeating the words "hit or "stick"
around an hour passes and i realise im down to my last 50 quids worth of chips the chinese have left and its just me and this new female croupier who again has no interest in making any conversaton
she cleans me out within 2 hands and half heartedly mutters "sorry"
usually i would have gone to find some more money from somewhere to waste in there , but im not in a very good mood so i just get up and leave
as im driving home im just thinking jesus that casino really doesnt give a s**t does it i could have pumped 2grand on that table and nobody would have batted an eyelid
the lack of mercy this addiction has is well quite freightening really
so yes thats how my saturday was spent 200 quid flushed down the toilet with over 3 weeks until payday safe to say i am going to be enjoying plenty of beans and toast this month
hopefully this post will be enough to deter anyone from thinking about being clever and going back to make some easy money
because you dont win , you never win lol
nipped wrote: hopefully this post will be enough to deter anyone from thinking about being clever and going back to make some easy money
because you dont win , you never win lol
It won't nipped. As an gambler i'd just say thats got nothing to do with me. My system / plan / scheme will work
and thats before we start talking about addiction or illness
A very accurate discription of how utterly depressing gambling really is. I hope that everytime you get the urge 'nipped' you read your own wise words back to yourself.
I've been gamble free for virtually 7 months now and life is slowly getting better, because of course it's not just the money this filthy addiction robs us of, it's also time, time that could be spent so much more enjoyably and productivley.
All the best to you 'nipped' and thank you for such an honest and factual post.
no problem folks i needed to get it off my mind anyway so if anyone can take an gain from it thats a bonus
i firmly belive il be plauged by this addiction for the rest of my life
all i can do is try and limit the loses and time wasted as best as i can
sorry nipped. should have finished by saying well done for stopping and make sure you stay away.
this addiction is a crafty SOB
Sorry to hear that honest tail about a relapse. When I placed and lost my last bet I was more than gutted, it felt different different, I knew I had to face up to my addiction. Hope you can too, reading your post I can feel your own disappointment and disgust. The way you detail the casino and the people in there, not a nice place, not people you want to be around. Get yourself out mate, keep out and try again.
I wish you well in your fight with this awful addiction.
You done well walking away and not heading too the atm . Stay strong m8 !
Some great description there nipped about how utterly depressing gambling and the environment actually is.
I had fleeting moments when i looked up and thought what am I doing in this dump. I really did start to think of other people in there a sad. Somebody should have handed me a mirror because I probably looked the saddest character of all.
I never really liked the atmosphere. It was totally false and I cringe at the banter I used to hear like the staff were friends. The truth is all the gamblers seemed edgy and didnt like people standing near them. I would have hated someone else winning on the same machine even though I put on a brave face.
I never want to see people in that atmosphere again. The people that would announce that they had fed £500 in like it was badge of honour and they could join the big rollers club. Im actually thinking why are you telling me that without crying. They just seemed numb to it. One guy was saying you never win in here ...while continually feeding his coins in
Its all they had to say to try and justify it, save face or appear casual about loss. Awful like an addicts den
Anyway Im very happy out of it.
Best wishes
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