The game of roulette has nearly destroyed my life-I have racked up debts of 60k plus but I know I cannot get any lower and I have taken positive steps to stop-I actually feel sick every time I think about what I have done and I am filling my life with other things rather than trying to chase my losses-what is done is done-I have been honest with everyone and that in itself softens the weight on my brain-I will do this because the utter desperation gambling causes is a place I cannot re-visit-writing this is one of the positive steps I will take to stop -I have not gambled for 11 days now
Good man, Johnny. Give it all up. No more anxiousness and I'll feeling when waiting on a bet. No more wasting money. It's taken me 25 years to fully realise it isn't for me and I haven't had a bet in 4 days and counting. The start of the football season will be a challenge for me, but i am choosing not to be so involved with sport matches. There is no future in the sort of things we were doing...
Respect to you Johnny, I've been there and got the S***e-stained t-shirt too! Respect for realising things must change and taking control of that change.
It's hard, boy oh boy is it hard, but 11 days is a great start you can build on - each day gets easier and gets you further away from the horror-memory.
I can't give any advice as I had a relapse recently - but one thing I can say for truth, is the next time you feel uncontrollably tempted, just come on here first and post anything - I guarantee after you've posted and read it back to yourself you'll not give in to the urge that night.
Best wishes, keep strong.
Molehole
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