Relapsed after 5 years

Hi there. Sorry to read about the relapse it’s so bad it takes all your soul and strength from you but you have come through five years and will do five years again

I had several relapses costing xxxx incalculable money the roller coaster really saps your will and it took years to get life back but we all only want to be the best for family partnerships and friends at our core so let’s begin the battle once more. Best

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Hi there. Sorry to read about the relapse it’s so bad it takes all your soul and strength from you but you have come through five years and will do five years again

I had several relapses costing xxxx incalculable money the roller coaster really saps your will and it took years to get life back but we all only want to be the best for family partnerships and friends at our core so let’s begin the battle once more. Best

It’s just so hard isn’t it when everywhere you turn there is gambling and anything little thing could set me off. This is the most serious it’s ever been with me.

Am really sorry to hear this this is the nightmare of gambling, it a dangerous illness, have u put all blocks in place, i thought lossing money was the worst thing how wrong was i, my last relapse got me into debt and im glad i put all the blocks in place i was going to do something seriously stupid and take out a massive loan thinking about it how sick would i have been as that would have ended my relationship with my family since stopping gambling i have transfered deeds over as i would have lost a property in the process, i have a loan out which will take few years to pay off which i now realise how greatful i am, this is a life long illness and u need some sort of ongoing therpy and support to manage this issue 

Hi 

Each time I went back to gambling was a lesson to learn from.

The most important thing we is to keep going back to meetings and understand what my last emotional trigger was.

For me my emotional triggers were my pains I could not heal. 

For me my emotional triggers were my fears I could not redue or face. 

For me my emotional triggers were my frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.

By me having my unreasonable expectations I was hurting my self time and time again.

For me my emotional triggers was due my feelings of boredom because I was not being productive.

For me my emotional triggers was due my feelings of loneliness and boredom and lack of healthy emotional intimacy.

By giving healthy therapies I reduced my fears, my trust started to grow, and healthy intimacy helped me open up more.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

Hi Mel,

Thank you for posting on the forum and sharing your situation. I can see that you are being supported by many other forum members and hopefully it provides some reassurance. If you have not done so already, then please consider talking to an adviser on the helpline. We can help you to layer your protection and also offer you support options, we are here for you.  

Best Wishes

Fiona 

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