Hi all it's Jen. I just wanted to post not about my latest gambling but about the opposite my latest ability to resist an urge. Yesterday for some reason was extremely tough for me. I woke up with strong urges to go gambling and blow off all my responsibilities that I had planned to get done on my day off. Well in the end I was able to resist the urge to go gambling. I had recently gambled the day before and lost a small fairly small amount. But I had that urgent I had to go try and win some more with a small amount of the money I had left. But I was able to remind myself over and over that I would end up spending more than I planned and losing all the money I had left. I actually have a decent amount left to get by till payday right now not huge amount but okay, as in I'll be okay if I don't spend anymore money till payday I'll have some cash on me if I need extra food or gasoline etc. so I need to not gamble because we all know how that $20 turns into gambling all the money you have left. So I'm proud of myself for resisting the urge. I only got one of the tasks sorry two of the tasks done out of the like five that I had wanted to get done on my day off. But I'm going to choose to be proud of myself for number one resisting the gambling urge which was strong and number two forcing myself to do The two tasks but I did get done, because I didn't feel like doing anything except gamble.
I credit the fact that I've recently come back to gamcare and I've been reading every single day sometimes twice a day people's posts and diaries. That was part of what helps remind me that I would definitely lose more than I had planned and that was my mind tricking me. So thanks to all for that. The support on here as well is been helping me trying to get myself back in control. If anyone would like to chat or comment on this I would appreciate it. I thoroughly enjoy discussing the subject, learning about gambling, learning about what makes us think the way we do CG's, and learning how to control our lives again. I feel everything we can do on here reading each other's post discussing things and giving each other tips to be successful empowers us again in our lives!
I am having some success so far learning how to control myself more and not go gambling as often. So I'm feeling encouraged
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