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Hi shaunk

You made a comment that alerted me as you said 'it is only roulette' . I have read accounts of how people have loses everything because of roulette. Those £100 spins suck you in and bleed you dry. I remember loosing £5000 in an hour at the bookies and feeling like I could end it there and then. I did not decide to take £5000 in to the bookies. Like you I started small £10 then £50 then the first time I lost £500 I was angry with myself and chased for 5 years. We always remember those very few good times when we turned a small amount into a big amount but the reality is they are very few and far between. If you are really honest how much of that big win did you spend on yourself or someone else and how much actually went straight back into that roulette machine.

You sound as if you have had enough and want things to change I wish you well. When you feel the urge remember those dark times of loss and let them remind you of how bad it will get if you give in.

Take care,

Could you confide in your dad? This may help. It sounds scary but you sound like you need someone to take control right now. We all know the feeling of how depressed we can be after those losses but eventually you go back and that's something you don't want to do. Try to remain upbeat and positive what done us done. There's no changing that but what you can do is stop now before you get in further debt. Losing is far more likely than winning so if you think it's on a tenner use some of it on pay off your existing debt. Better in your pocket hand the casinos. It's awful I know but you sound like you've got the right attitude but now you need to put barriers in place to prevent further destruction.

Chin up and think positive

Thanks for the comments and the advice both of you. There is no way I could tell anyone about this I would feel like s**m of the earth if anyone knew and totally embarrassed cause now I reflect and think about all the money I've lost on a "machine" I'm actually amazed at how stupid and hooked in I could get. The fobts are the most addictive thing I have ever played there so dangerous and should be banned or reduced so a £2 max bet. It's shocking how a normal person can just walk past in the high street and gamble £100 every 20-30 seconds or whatever. Today is pay day, and I owe a apsolute fortune out. Going to be really hard but I'm going to try and over come this. Since I don't want to tell anyone and I need to control my finances and put barriers in place how could I go about doing this without having to tell anyone or give anyone my cards ?

Wow 5,000 that's crazy. I really feel for you that's a lot of money. It's like when your chasing that loss, you lose the value and keep gambling hoping oh if I get my money back I'll leave or whatever but if you would be happy with your money back then why would you gamble in the first place? It's madness. I'm not actually sure why I do it, cause I don't actually crave it or have a physical addiction to keep going in but when I do and I lose its like I'd do anything to chase the loss at whatever cost. It's hard to explain, but I've a serious problem. I've self harmed over losing massive amounts of money and felt like ending it all myself. I never ever thought I would have a addiction if you would have told me what's would be happening in my life 2 years ago I'd of laughed , and said well easiest thing to do is not go in right? And don't play. That easy, unfortunately not. Aww well suppose I just wanted to tell someone cause it's been on my mind for so long but it's good that I've finally come on here with people who understand and are in the same boat if you like. 5 days gamble free at the moment , this is where I stop for good now

I know what you mean. I'm currently seeing a counsellor and even though I don't feel the urge right now I'm not stupid enough to think I never will. I will which is how and why I got in this mess. I was like you. Didn't think about it for days and then I'd think what's a tenner.. lose it deposit ВЈ20 hope for ВЈ40 back...the tenner I deposited plus a tenner extra and then within hours sometimes less I'd then be chasing hundreds of pounds. I was like you. I'm female good job nice car married daughter...probably what you'd least expect from me but here I am £11000 in debt now but telling my husband has been my saving grace. I was genuinely scared about what I was going to do next but luckily he saw that it was out of my control and that I had a problem. Gave him everything cards...bank details and agreed to block everything and see a counsellor.

Try installing software on your phone and block yourself or if it's bookies you can still self exclude from there. Could you possibly change your card to a cash card instead of debit card? Day 5 good going. Keep going. Don't spend any money on gambling...pointless. think about the worst case scenario.. you lose it all! It's just not worth it.

The second step to gambling how do you face the debts.
Professional help or the faith in yourself that you will achieve a job a new life a loving partner.
Small steps on paper.
It is all temporary every second a thought we change our thinking and our beliefs and what is real.
Don't let others control your path.
Heaven.

Belief and manifestation a book the unconscious mind....