My problem isn't gambling as the general definition, but I think can be constituted under gambling.
It all started two years ago when I downloaded an app called "Game of war". Originally I didn't spend anything. That has changed now and I've spent £100s in one month. Before it would be £5-£10 here and there but now it's to the point where I've been constantly dipping into my savings to pay for this addiction.
I feel ashamed of myself and I just can't stop. Today I had a purchase declined because I had £9 left on my account. That's where I've got to. I get paid in 2 days and I'm worried when I do, I'll spend it all on the game again.
I pay my bills but that doesn't stop me from feeling bad about the constant spending. I'm supposed to save it for uni but I've not been able to control myself. I work 8 hours a week (sometimes 9/10) adult minimum wage so what I spend is a lot for me.
Last year I turned 16 and I started having benefits paid into my account (DLA/PIP now) and that made it a ton worse. I would give what I had to give to my mum and in savings, but soon after I would take it out of savings and spend it once the remainder had gone.
I can't tell anyone. I made excuses such as spending £100 by accident on my phone bill before, when it was all really on game in the first year.
I feel hopeless and depressed but I can't seem to stop myself 🙁 I just need someone to talk to that understands.
Parent of a yong gambler speaking. Not hee to tell you off or judge you but to offer you support and help. Yes you will feel ashamed, panicking, just do not know what to do. But I must try and strongly persuade to you man up and tell your Mum today. It really is the only way you are going to be able to start to sort your problem. You are losing money that is meant for your bright future at uni - you really do not want to lose any more or pile up debts. Yes, your Mum will be upset, schocked but believe you me if you do not tell her and carry on like this things will become worse. Most parents on here have supported their children helping them to recover. If you are still at school or college ask to speak to a school pastoral staff or counsellor. They will talk in confidence. Make today day 1 of your first day of being gamble free and keep counting the days from now on - make that your challenge. You are very young - Good luck and take care.
Hello Feelingdeadinside
Seems like you are having problems with online gaming spending more money than you want to or can afford and this is causing you to feel hopeless and depressed. I'm glad you felt able to post here on the forum and although we deal with gambling issues you are welcome to call our helpline on 0808 8020 133 where an adviser can sign post you to other organisations that can perhaps give you the help that you need right now.
You may also want to have a look at On-Line Gamers Anonymous which is is a self-help fellowship where members share their experience, strengths and hope with each other to help them to recover and heal from problems caused by excessive game playing, whether it be computer, video, console, or on-line.
You may also want to contact The Mix which has a helpline and netline. " If you’re under 25 and need help but don’t know where to turn call us for FREE on 0808 808 4994. We’ll explore your situation with you and find organisations that may be able to help you further."
http://www.themix.org.uk/get-support/speak-to-our-team
There is help out there for you so please do get in touch with one of these organisations.
Take care
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