18 days gamble free

Morning pol,

Understand your very string urges with that money in your account, waiting to be burnt:(((.

You need to remove all access to that money, put it somewhere else, draw it out, put it in your gf, mums, anyone's account that you can trust.Cancel your card, There is always a way to remove money so we can't use it. My advice my friend is to remove it ASAP. those urges will get too much,

Keep very strong and do something positive now, to keep you safe.

Suzanne xxx

Hi Suzanne, well the money is still pending in my online casino account and you can stop it from pending and to go back into balance, I don't think they is a way of being able to not go near it?? I'm just gonna have to really use my will power in till goes into my bank account, I've already broke my bank card up and soon as money as cleared going to close casino account x

Understand Pol, you just have to wait for it to clear :(( they know what they are doing with these xxxx pending transactions.it can take days with some accounts:(((

Keep very strong, you will win if you don't start withdrawing it back, and you will feel sooo much better within yourself.and that will be a massive positive as we head towards Xmas,

Take care of you.

Suzanne xxx

Thank you, I'm gonna stay well away from the online account stay as busy as I possibly can, I can have a really good Xmas with that money and treat my fionnce and daughter to some nice gifts, I'm gonna keep posting I'm not losing this money what is already mine what I've lost in the past anyway, x

Hi I understand completely how you feel I was scared of telling my husband ashamed felt guilty I even felt stupid for being so pulled in by gambling but he has been really understanding and I think it's the first step to quitting because I can't keep it all secret anymore instead I talk to him and try to work out how to move forward

Hi Pol, have read through your diary and you have done reallt well to get to 37 days.

It's not like your going back to day 1 really because you realised you made a mistake and have stopped quickly. Please don't put another penny of that money back into the casino or on any kind of gambling because you will regret it and in the long run you will lose everything including your family.

Hope you can stay strong for the time it takes to clear the money to your bank. Also try again with your partner and tell her it is vital she looks after the bank account. Why not set up a joint account and put all your money in there and close your own personal account and then she can see what is going on. If you really want to stop for good that is what you should do.

Best wishes,

CJA

Hi xx panda xx, it's just hard to tell her as I didn't tell her the full ins and outs of how bad my addiction has bee and is, if she knew it all I really think she would leave me without a doubt, I just feel I'm on my own on with this apart from all.the help from all the nice people on this site, but I'm happy that he is understanding towards your gambleing problem, thank you I was really enjoying seeing the days pass by I woke up really happy to update my diary and see myself progressing, I'm gonna stay well away from the website it's all because of being off work yesterday and feeling low and lonely it's not a excuse but I do no from my recovery that I'm most reuable at these points, as to the joint account, I have a joint account with her but my wages go into my account and I leave that there and transfer the remaining into the joint just do that to build on my credit rating, so the money I nearly lost was bill money for next month so if I lost that I would of had to of told her, just stuck what to do for best, I'm geting house start of next year so do I tell her everything or just quit for good now, I don't wanna lose everything and the people I love that should be enough to stop for good

I know it's really hard my and my husband have a house and thanks to me we have debts (ones which I had kept hidden from him) I kept my problem secret from the day we met he knew I gambled but didn't realise exactly how much and how addicted I was.

It may feel like you can't tell her now but perhaps you will reach a point were u feel u can be completely honest with her and she could then help you get control of everything take over the finances maybe? Until you are in a stronger position and are able to stay away from gambling.

Either way I wish you all the luck quitting gambling, it's only day one for me but am really hoping that I can quit for good and have a better quality of life I hope everyone on this site can do it too

So if I'm correct the way you're proposing to tackle your gambling addiction this time is to rely on the methods that have never worked for you before. Deceit and willpower. Hows that worked out for you before? Your cycle of relapse and remission will never change until you accept the facts that your not able to do this alone. Recovery is available to anyone its a shame so few are prepared to commit to what needs to be done. I'm afraid without the simple act of honesty my experience is you will never find it

Well I've been thinking all day and I am thinking of coming fully clean with her, we are geting married etc it's not fair on her not knowing before we both commit, all the best with your recovery will all stick together and beat this, can't agree with your post enough day@atime I've tried n tried and failed I actually thought I wanted to quit more then ever this time but obviously not so I'm gonna have to find a new way, and I genuinely think honestly is the only way, I'm hoping I get the chance to tell her tonight I'm so scared tho I lose her I lose everything 🙁

It will be tough Pol2013 but it maybe the thing that helps you to turn this around! Good luck and let us know how it goes. Be as honest as you can be. From experience speaking to someone like a councellor can really help.

I will keep you all informed not gonna lie I'm very scared but like u say could be the turning point for me, I need to try couciling something I haven't tried that will be my next step

Why not phone Gamcare now & set up that counselling or look up your GA meetings so that when you come clean she can see how much you want to beat this! Just coming clean isn't going to stop the urges & just getting the gambling triangle broken isn't going to teach you how to live in harmony with this addiction. Maybe even check out the closest Gamanon so that you can give her options if she struggles to deal with it! An active CG is not a good partner & I absolutely agree with you needing to come clean, no-one deserves to be tricked into marrying someone they really don't know! I hope you don't lose her but if you do, you won't have lost everything because you will have your pride!

Be strong - ODAAT

Hey pol,

You have done something positive already, you have been posting on here this afternoon and getting good advice, and it has kept you occupied.

Listen it's very hard to tell our loved ones what we have done, but that is the only way they can half understand us :))

Honesty is the best policy, it's very scary but once you tell her, you will feel strangely better. I guess she has no idea how bad your addiction is, and you may be surprised at her response.

Keep strong

Suzanne xxx

Pol2013 good luck telling your partner I'm sure when u tell her how much you want to quit and how hard it is to break the addiction she will see how much u have been struggling and want to help you let us know how it goes and I'm sure this will be a positive step towards you beating the addiction