18TH JAN 2013 - Time to let go.

Again, thank you Feb. Your support on here means a lot me, as well as others here.

Whilst it is hard to falter this late on and nearing my year point, it may have been a blessing in disguise, or I'll use it as such in any case.

I feel I have learned a lesson though, the hard way. I think I would have ended up back as I was after reaching a year. It's like I've brainwashed myself and find it hard to let go of what is in reality, not something nice, but a poison to me. I'm totally aware what poison it is now though, believe me. The memories of the weekend are still fresh in my mind and they brought about old memories of when I was at my worst. I say that in a good way, as it kind of refreshed why I need to be bet free and why I came here in the first place. Though, to be honest, it probably would have been more sensible to read my old diary entries than to gamble, but oh well.

I have to believe, I have got something valuable from this slip, maybe some wisdom I lost during my recovery through being lax.

Again, like you I'll be committed to this journey and focus on my recovery.

Oh..and never again will I fall for one of the bloomin' promotions. 🙂 Screw that lol.

-Alex

Thx Feb for your post last weekend on my thread ... I am pleased to report that he survived the weekend and stayed on track ... But was a worrying 24 hours I have to say ... But your support is always appreciated.

You keep up the good work as well, you are doing well and looking to a better future xxx

Thanks Jac.

So pleased to hear your son stayed strong whilst away with his friends.

Take care.

Feb.x

WEEK 11.

Feeling happy - fridge is full of food, cupboards are filled with all the things I like, plenty of wine in stock, petrol in my car. WHY?? Because I choose not to gamble. It's so true what they say about the simple things in life. At the moment, that's all I can have but how happy do they make me feel right now?? VERY HAPPY!!

Off to see my lovely mum now. How nice it is to be driving over there instead of bussing it in this horrible weather!! Still bursting with happiness from my uncle gifting me with his beautiful car.

Take care all and have a good weekend.

Feb - Happy that I am still on "The Bright Side of the Road".

Hey Feb,

And huge well done for enjoying your life to the full. Recovery is bespoke and we only can see the benefits of it every day we abstain from this evil habit. Be proud and keep reaching for the highs you fully deserve.

Day at a time

Be proud! 🙂

Sandra x

Thanx for your support (((( Lady Feb )))) 😉

Take care and enjoy ur Sunday x

S x

No problem ladies. We are all here to support each other.

Take care.

Feb.

Feb,

Just wanted to drop in and say well done. I'm perhaps not quite as active in contributing on people's diaries as I was, but I'm still checking in to see progress.

Already approaching 3 months since your minor 'blip'... Excellent work, keep it up.

Best

D123

Hey Feb, thanks for posting on my diary. Glad to hear your recovery is going well and you can buy all the things you couldn't have bought before when you were gambling. Keep strong xxx

Thanks peops for your kind words.

Take care.

Feb.

WEEK 11.

Just read Duncs' last post on his diary and he mentioned setting himself some short/long term goals again. This was something I was doing but since my two hour "moment of madness", and not writing in my diary on a daily basis any more, I have not been setting myself any.

I am considering setting myself some more mini goals each month when I have been paid so here goes:-

NOVEMBER MINI GOALS:

1. To continue to pay all bills.

2. To save £20 towards my car tax next October.

3. To purchase some Christmas presents.

LONG TERM GOALS

1. To remain gamble free.

2. To remain patient in paying my debts back.

Not too many but enough to be dealing with I think.

Take care all and remember, it's fast approaching Christmas. Being gamble free can only help us have a more peaceful one, something I am definitely planning on having!!

Feb - Feeling cosy on "The Bright Side of the Road".

Hey Feb,

Love the list 🙂

I love a long term one : TO REMAIN GAMBLE FREE !!! Way to go girl, u doing fab.

Real inspiration, thank you

Have a good week darling.. have some cruising round town in ur flashy car;-)

S x

Feb

Thanks for the kind words lady feb, they mean a great deal.

I am again firmly back in the saddle and have learnt from my harsh lesson.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

WEEK 12.

Thought I would post now as I try to every saturday, to mark a new week being gamble free. I am going to be too busy tomorrow, rustling up supper dishes. Then off to my sisters for the weekend, with a girly day out on Sunday - thrown in for good measure!!

Starting to think about Christmas and certain that its going to be enjoyable, peaceful and stress free!! Sounds good doesn't it!!

Take care all and enjoy your weekend - just like me!

Feb - cruising along "The Bright Side of the Road".

WEEK 13.

Brrrrr... It's cold this morning. I do have heating though to warm me up. I remember back to one night last January when I had gambled all my salary and as a result, sat with no heating!! Never again - although if these energy bills continue to rise, it could be back to wooley jumpers and a hot water bottle at the ready!!!

Pay day on Wednesday. Can't wait. Looking forward to ticking off my mini goals once again.

Take care all.

Feb - cold but content on "The Bright Side of the Road".