2010

Hi jasmine,

Just been reading some of your recent thoughts. Sounds like not accepting the re-working of your finances maybe a good thing. Cos the reality is that you would owe more money even if your monthly repayments were lowered. It maybe that at some point you or your partner will earn a bit more money so the financial side of things will ease up a bit.

As for feeling a fraud for continuing to post.. try not to feel that way. I know people at Ga who havent gambled for decades but they still attend and talk about the stuff thats going on for them. Cos in talking about life in general it tends to stop the return of thoughts of gambling.. thats the theory anyway. All the best in recovery.. S.A

Morning!

Manic in my world at the moment. Seems i have allowed the gates to open and now I am a real busy bee. Doing my burlesque and bollywood dance classes, loads of volunteer work....and i am now going to be trained in serious crime so maybe there will be a job opportunity opening there...strange how a lot of good jobs have to have a "voluntary" foundation. I am looking after my nephews as my sister has gone on a romantic break with her hubbie. So everything is tickety boo here.

Had an email today....don't quite know what to feel about it. It's from betfilter...passing on a request from Mirror journalist who is doing a "human" article on women who have in the past gambled compulsively online...well...i fit that profile....ironic that the Mirror is the online gaming site I first started with....i wonder if they will pay me for spilling my gutz? I guess it's good in one way if it highlights the dangers....may do it if i can remain anon.

Lovely sunny day here...piano lesson later and then off to my sisters to make the evening meal for my nephews.

Stay strong all....love from Jas xx

Hi Jas

Yeah i guess you will do it.If only to help others.

As for getting payed i doubt that. they only like to take our money lol.Good to see you doing so well Jas.All the best Jeff.

Bloomin' eck....had to hunt my diary out. Guess that must be a good thing eh? Not needing to lean on a diary....maybe? Who knows the answer?

I know I am 80% back to me.....I have endless energy and seem to be smiling all the time...bit crazy...but hey ho....that's me all over.

My decision to stop gambling has made me happy again. Truely happy. Money is still a mess but as i can't wriggle out of it I have at long last decided to just live with it. It's who I am and as I'm not about to win the lotto it will just have to get paid off the hard way....by working and slowly eating away at it.

I was invited out by my sis at the weekend who had returned from her break. You can guess where she was going.......I declined the invite. I just don't gamble anymore...simple. There are other pleasures in my life...they were always there but covered in the gambling fog. They have all started to resurface because I am allowing them to.

It's taken a whole year to get to this point and I am eternally grateful for all the support, advice and kindness I have been shown on here.

Going to catch up on a few diaries now to check on my friends. Lovely day here again...the sun is such a great motivator!

Jas xx

Thanks for popping in on my diary jasmine...good to see you doing so so well especially not leaning on your diary anymore...your an inspiration in what can be done...we can do this 🙂

Hello Jas,

Fantastic post from you. Yep you can 'wriggle' as much as you want but I'm afraid the consequences(debt) of gambling are just that... consequences. Accepting that and dealing with it like all your other household/living bills each month(or whenever) is just part of life. When at last we truly get to that place, that is when the real living can begin properly. Sounds like you are doing just that my friend 😉

Good to hear from you Jas. Enjoy the sun, enjoy your freedom, enjoy whatever you do but never forget what brought you to this way of thinking and why. The beast will sleep forever... if its not tickled!

Jackie x

It feels as if not gambling is becoming more of a way of life for you, and much less effort than it was before. That is so wonderful to see, gorgeous lady 🙂

Glad you find yourself in increasingly happier times these days! In some ways, the gambling debt is kind of a good reminder of why its really not good to gamble. It may help slightly to look on it as a good motivator - you don't want it to get a single penny larger than it is.

Its crazy what we used to do to ourselves and our finances isnt it? the sheer lack of respect for the power that money can have.

I dont mean that I am motivated by money, but I was looking in The Big Issue at the weekend, and you can get a young homeless person off the streets for a WHOLE YEAR for £120!!!!! In that way, even £120 can be VERY powerful. When I am bet-free for 10 weeks, I am going to sign up for that. How exciting to be able to make such a huge difference to someone else's life with £10 a month!

Keep smiling my girl, and tell me how the burlesque dance is going - sounds so much fun! very empowering I imagine too.

Take care,

f x

hi jasmine

I have just been reading ur posts and im so glad to see ur doing well still.

xx

Well done on a year of no gambling Jas, you are obviously much happier now and you continue to be an inspiration to many others.

Hey my girl

Well done on 1 year.

I'm still around even if I don't post much at the moment. I often lie in bed resting and read the diaries from my mobile. Hence no replies, but I am around.

Love and hugs to you and P

God Bless

Charly/Sabine xx

i have not been around much but you sound like a totally refreshed and recharged human Jas. Good stuff and keep on keeping on!

All the Best

Darren

"A totally refreshed and recharged human" liking that Dazza 🙂

Been very busy just living life. Went up to Glasgow on Thursday, P was working up there and I decided to go and keep him company. I used to work in Glasgow but haven't been for years...really surprised at how it had changed. Great shopping! Virtual shopping that is......very limited funds! I went round seeing how many "freebies" I could get...it's good fun. Boots is brill for free samples and testers. Got a mini facial and make up done at the Clarins counter.......I've got the cheek of the devil...ha ha....then moved onto food freebies.

P is off this week and we are going to chill, was hoping for good weather but has been peaing it down.

No gambling for me which is the most important thing.

Stay strong everyone...love to all my friends.

Jas x

Morning Jas

Thanks for post. Good to read that you are continuing to be happy in your gambling free life.

Not feeling like I qualify to post much on other diaries at the moment after my recent setback.

Jasmine...thanks for your support,very much appreciated and absolutely fantastic seein you being happy and successful,we can do this 😉

Hi jas.

Toby is great i took him for a big walk today to forget my troubles. i hope you are well and 2moz Will be a week i cant wait.

Carl and Toby x