2010

Hi jas,

Thanks for your ongoing support and encouragement. I hope you are still finding yourself in a good place 🙂

I have been so short of time lately, but Im going to have to address this and re-prioritise, as less time spent working on recovery has = more gambling. Anyway, you and all my comrades on here are in my thoughts even if I slack off from writing those thoughts down.

Take care,

f x

Hi Jas

Just passing through, been a while since posting on your diary, i hope you are well!

Nearly a year on this forum now for me, i still think back to my early days and the first night in chat is still logged in my brain. You, Freda, Graham, DT and Green where so nice to me that night, i was at my rock bottom, very depressed and in tears.

Every time i log in you where one of the very first posters on my diary...

So huge thanks to you, i am very grateful! I have turned my life around and feel kinda good.

I hope the sun shines on you and your family!

All the very best to you Jasmine, take care... ands xx

Hi Jas

Just dropping bye to see how you are, isn't it lovely that the sun is shining at last 🙂

Lots of love girl to both you and P .

W xxxx

Thanks for the posts 🙂

Well, I'm just mooching along. It's not all ha ha hee hee but without gambling it's more manageable.

My finances remain the constant bain of my life. This is the legacy which gambling has left me with and for many years to come too. I guess that after 14 years of gambling this isn't going to go in the blink of an eye. It just really P****s me off what I've done, that's all. But, I will soldier on regardless and most importantly will live for today instead of planning and worrying about the future.

Our youngest is 18 on Friday and we have a family meal planned on the Saturday. I have been saving towards the meal for months now.......it isn't really costing that much and yet handing over the cash to pay for it will kill me off as I am so skint. She will only be 18 once and I can't let it go without celebration. Goodness.....how I have put money into perspective since I have stopped gambling. The cost of this meal would have been short lived when I had my gambling head on. I am so grateful I have been able to find the strength and determination to stop gambling.

I will catch up on diaries over this week and offer my support.

Love to all....stay strong, Jas xx

morning jas.

me and toby are well he is lying on the end of the bed wondering when im going to get up. Thanks for the post and yes going to give my dad my bank card on fri no point now as no money in bank. well there is about £6 lol cant do out with that. Just watching Austin Powers on dvd so funny. Thanks again for being there 4 me x

c.

How exciting that your baby is turning 18!!!

I love how your diary is concerned with things to do with living these days, you know? Yeah there are debt issues too, and some gambling feelings - but life seems to be really moving on - woopeeee! 🙂

Take care,

f x

Hi Jas

Great to talk to you tonight for first time in a while.

Keep in touch. Hope your debt mountain gets hit by an earthquake and crumbles faster than you imagine. you deserve the best.

Hi jasmine,

looking over your diary it's quite inspirational!! You were helpful to me when I started on here & I see you are still helping others. Keep up keeping up! & ty.

4D

Hi Jasmine thanks for your message. I took your advise and got my fat @ss out for a walk in the village. Snook into the pub for half a lager and walked some more. Cleared the head a bit before the house filled up with kids home from school.

Hope all is good your end - im still playing catch up with all thats gone on. Good thoughts to your Jasmine. All the best Blocked.

Hi jas.

I hope the meal goes well 2night and she enjoys herself on her 18th. I never had one as i left home when i was 17. Anyway have a great night. And dont think about the money think about the enjoyment you will get from it. Better than gambling it away.

Me and toby doin ok. x

hi jas i hope you are ok. i had a bad day yesterday. but i have put more blocks in the way now. so i will just start again. Hope you had a good time at ur 18th do.

carl and toby xx

Hi Jasmine

Just a quick note to say hope all went well at the weekend. I like reading your diary too as like Freda says it is concerned with life and living - bad days and good days but they are yours and not ruled by the G.

All the best

4D

Thanks for the posts everyone 🙂 always appreciated.

It's been an eventful few days with my girl turning 18 on Friday....that's why I've hardly had time to check this site out so sorry for my lack of support.....promise to catch up soon and see what you are all up to.

Lots of family stuff has been going on some bad and some good. But you know what, I dealt with it all with a clear head. My daughter went out with her friends on her actual birthday and so I thought "what's good enough for her is good enough for me" so I gathered a group of willing folk looking for fun and off we went...out on the town. Ended up in the casino for a few cocktails....went in and felt a bit like a criminal but for some strange reason I have never had a problem in a casino...I can take it or leave it...weird or what? Still sticking to the plan though and had limited funds on me and I had the taxi money tucked away in my bag. P likes roulette and why shouldn't he have a go........to him losing a fiver is enough! We had a real good laugh and that's what counted. P asked me over the weekend if going to the casino had triggered any urges to gamble and I can honestly say....NO. In any case I have my secret soldier looking out for me (betfilter)!

I guess it's all about knowing what pushes your buttons, if you get me. I can't live my life avoiding situations when I have so many frineds that enjoy a flutter without it being a major problem for them. All I can do is protect myself and keep my blocks in place.

My daughter's party on Saturday was really lovely. We had a family meal in a super local pub. It was great having us all together and we finished the day off watching the England game....S***e wasn't it?

Our two youngest were 21 and 18 this year and we paid for them to go on holiday together.....been saving for years so spent the money on that. They are now sunning themselves in Spain......wished it was me 🙂 I am so very proud that they get on so well together.

I'm still skint but not as skint as I would be if I had continued to gamble compulsively. Every day I wake up I am grateful that I found the strength and courage to stop.

Love to all my friends, will catch up later.

Jas xx

I'm still skint but not as skint as I would be if I had continued to gamble compulsively. Every day I wake up I am grateful that I found the strength and courage to stop.

You cant really say any more than that Jazzy my friend .............

Pushing buttons , George Clooney for me .....lol

TC

Kim xx

Jas

re pushing buttons, I'd push your buttons anytime honey....(but dont tell P)