2010

Thanks for the support wise mother owl aka mam Theresa lol.,you inspire many on here myself included 😉 best wishes we can do this 🙂

Hi,

I'm going to Uni, I'm going to Uni, I'm going to Uni.

Made a massive decision about my future plans. With all this gambling c r a P out of the picture everything has come into focus.

So here comes the new mature student........bring it on.

The future is bright...the future is no gambling.

Love to all.....Jas x

hI Jas, just read through diarys! Great to see how far you've come!, and now Uni! Superb!

Quite a few things hit a chord, only just embarking on my long travel in beating this demon, but with half the strength you've shown, i know i will beat this and achieve the calmness and clear headed thoughts, you had mentioned earlier!!

Interesting to hear the FML, something that i've always battled and altimately caved into!

Anyway stay strong and focused and enjoy a bright future!!!!!!!

Paul

Hi Jas,

Uni!? very cool 🙂

What you going to study? your diary is seeming more and more like a new person has been reborn and now blossoming.

Take care,

f x

Hi f....going for a careers chat before I finally decide what is best on the Uni front. Can't wait to be a student though...all that drinking and partying...oh yes...and studying lol. Peeps have said to me....what you doing that for.............because....I WANT TO

I read on a post a few days ago about people supporting gamblers as being enablers. It made me think...quite deeply in fact. I have chatted this through with P and my mind is now rested on that matter. This site is a constant learning experience.

I don't count the time I have been free of gambling any longer...it's over a year now that's all I care about. I just know my bank statements are a whole lot smaller then they used to be!

Jas x

Hi Jas,Thanks for the message,the site i have mentioned on Captains diary isn't a gaming site,it's a forum used by people just like Captain (I.E. people who still want to bet).I will edit the message however,and re-word it.I am the last person on here who would encourage anyone to gamble Jas.

Seano.

Congratulations on getting in to uni jasmine and well done on your lengthy abstinence. 🙂 funny you mention your bank statements...I was having a tidy up of mine the other day and was shocked to find some months had 6 pages.I wonder why. ???..now of course I'm environment friendly and just need the one and as long as I've my basic account I'm happy ,no over the moon at that. 🙂 best wishes we can do this. 😉

You go girl........

wish i had the guts !!!!!!!

TC

Kim xxxx

Thanks Kim...it's a dream I have had for years and my mindset is ready. Spent years supporting and coaching my girls with great success.....2 Doctors.....1 Trainee Nurse and 1 Trainee Midwife.....and so it's my turn now.

This site is brill and it has really opened up my eyes and I have learnt loads. P and I were discussing the site during one of our many walks with our dogs. I have learnt lots of ways to help me to recover and I have also read stuff about different types of bets....fobts......gaming sites......how to get past betfilter and gamblock etc.....all stuff I never knew before. I guess at the end of the day the choice is yours...If you want to gamble you will. I don't and so I won't. What you talking about Jas? Well I know what I mean anyway.

Got an 80's concert tonight at Shugborough with my brother and sisters....really looking forward to it.

Enjoy the weekend.

Jas x

..."There's no way a smart person can go broke except through borrowed money. All borrowed money does is, it may help you get it a little faster, but it can help you get poorer a whole lot faster." - Warren Buffett

Congratulations on your decision to go to Uni Jas - sounds like you have really found a new start and a second chance at life - well done!

Thanks jasmine, not gonna go all heavy on your diary!

The tears are a rolling. take care, ands xx

Hi Jas

Well done on your decision to do something for Jas.

After all the damage I had done through gambling, for a long time I thought I had to make amends to others and put my needs on hold. I thought I was so selfish whilst gambling, I had to give all of me to all of them for how ever long it would take.

And then I started to learn through G.A. and this site that in order for me to be able to make these amends, I had to look out for me first. I had to get myself better, begin to like/love ME, in order for all those amneds I was planning to take affect.

And that is what you are doing now. You are doing something for just You and I wish you all the best. You have put a lot of effort into your recovery and now it's time to move on to an even better ledge on that mountain we are all climbing.

Sending love and hugs

God Bless

Sabine x

Another well done from me too Jas.

Thats some goal to be working to, I'm sure at time there will be pressures but the effort is a means to and end. If things weren't challenging then we'd all be doing everything and that would be a boring world.

Dave

Thanks for the posts 🙂

The weather is definitely grim "up North" today.......

Yesterday I went to the Post Office. I was in a world of my own and then something caught my attention. Two doors down is a bookies and there was a few folk standing outside...it was obvious there was something wrong. I caught the eye of a guy who was clearly distressed. He was sweating, pulling at his hair and crying. A member of staff had rushed out to him and was trying to persuade him to come back into the shop and have a drink....she was putting her arm around him to guide him back in but he was having none of it. I didn't want to stand and stare but I couldn't help myself. I could only guess at what had gone on and it certainly wasn't the reaction of someone who had won. A car drew up, he got in and off he went. I felt sad I really did.

I haven't been able to stop thinking of him. Been making stuff up in my head. I hope he is ok. It brought back memories for me. Heavy losses...looking at myself in the mirror, crying and wanting to slap myself across the face for the mess I had got into. I must never forget that feeling...must never become complacent.

I am so happy I found the strength and courage to change my life for the better.

I am going for a nice walk now...in the rain...with my pooches.

Have a good weekend all.

Jas x