2010

Don't know why I'm on here so late? Just perusing the internet and as usual always visit my saving grace.

Don't want to start posting loads on other's diaries and appear flaky. If you know what I mean? I seem to be ok just at the moment. Yeah, the finances are S***e but my heart and mind are free. Supporting you all as normal.

Nite...Jas x

Hi Jasmine,

Thanks for your support.

It's great to see you continuing to defeat your gambling demons. I think it is very poignant what you say about your husband telling you that your gambling could have put your relationship at risk. I'd hate to risk my relationship with my wife for the sake of a few silly bets.

Keep fighting Jas.

Hi Jasmine

Glad to hear things are going ok for you.

Must have been hard to hear what P said but a few things can be taken from it. Firstly, the way I see it he obviously feels comfortable enough to tell you, it will work as both a motivator ie what could happen but also as an indication that from what you have been able to do he no longer feels that way.

Sounds like a sound bloke and if he's anything like my H then you're in safe hands.

'I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP' - stumper

Dave

Hi Jas

It was nice to hear from you again as always.Its also good to see things are going well for you.The finances will sort themselves out eventually Jas.Thanks for all your help and advice.Jeff.

Well...it's been a while since I posted...even forgot my log in details!

My return to study has been so fantastic i can't put it into words. Meeting new people....opening up my mind again to learning new things...it's just great...hard work too....what with the student life...drinking etc....lol. But seriously, my life has definitely turned a corner and believe me although it's peeing it down here today the "sun" is certainly shining..... 🙂

It's well over a year now that I came here in a pathetic state...on my bended knee begging for help....and look at me know....standing tall and loving life again. It can be done.

Freedom.

Love to all....Jas xx

I remember the support you gave me Jasmine. And its so GOOD to read where you are now in your own mind. So Good! I really wish you the best as you now move forward with the new you. All the best to you. Blocked.

Well over a year Jasmine. Time flies and you have done so well. I do remember when you first came here. Just look where you are now.

Hi Jas

Just reading your last post put a big smile on my face.Its great to read a real success story.And dont you deserve it.Well done Jas.All the best Jeff.

So happy for you jasmine...youve got me through some tough times ...we can do this 🙂

Had to hunt my diary out...exhausted now lol.

I was on the computer printing out past gcse maths papers and just thought i would pop by.

My headspace is full of studying now and i absolutely love it. I would highly recommend it as a complete distraction to gambling thoughts. It has provided me with structure, planning, learning, meeting new peeps but most of all it has given me a purpose.

For anyone who knows my story you may remember that P agreed to pay for a holiday with my sister who has had cancer. Well, well...how time flies. We are due to go this Sunday and best of all... part of the deal was that this was a reward for my hard work in "getting myself sorted". I haven't gambled and I only ever think of it when I am on here or if one of those rediculous gaming ads comes on the tv...apart from that my mind is free to do what it likes. I sometimes feel that my previous antics were some form of madness...a stage in my life where I lost control of reality....but my feet are back on dry land...and they feel like dancing!

The fun has returned to my life...no longer a shell which was pretty much a slave to the dreaded G....living again 🙂

I know I don't post much but I always think of all my friends on here...cheering you on quietly from the sidelines. Hope is a wonderful thing.......hang onto it.

Better get on with this maths revision...exam soon!

Lots of love from Jas x

Hi Jas

I am so proud of you my girl. Well Done you. You have worked so hard at getting where you are now. And you deserve all the things that are in your life right now.

It's nice that you update us from time to time so we know where you are in your recovery.

Sending lots of love and hugs to you and P.

God Bless

Sabine x

Jasmine

As you see I'm back on here with a renewed determination to do it once and for all.

Just had a catch up on your diary and send you my respect and congrats for doing so brilliantly with some difficult things going on for you.

Day 68 for me, I will not gamble today.

Best wishes to you and P.

David xx

Hiya Jas,

Popping in 🙂 long long time ...but glad to see all is going good for you.

Love Del xo

jasmine my dare i say it (mature) student friend lol...its been a long time....hope you and P had most enjoyable holiday and your settling in well with your studies....successful stories like yours are a MUST for the front pages lassie...give us an update...least ave saved you 8 pages worth lol x

Thanks for thinking of me...especially you cheeky wp...mature student "how very dare you" ha ha.

Our holiday was lovely but over too soon. Bit of a lull in my mood which is usual after a holiday but have to get back into the real world. Back to college today which is going to take some real effort....my headspace is still on the beach.

My gambling antics seem a distant memory but I am all too aware that I will never be 100% recovered. I still have to question and be vigilent and never put myself into dodgy situations. If it feels wrong then it almost definitely is. During our holiday In Egypt there is virtually no gambling at it is a Muslim country.....but...and there is always a but...there was an oportunity for us to go out on a night out and it was suggested we go to the Casino in Sinai. I was tempted, not for the gambling but for the experience and the dressing up glam bit....then I felt the demons working....roulette numbers coming into my head and the mind calulator buzzing away as to how much spending money we had............it was all wrong. I didn't like these thoughts....and so I decided it best not to go.....and we didn't go. We walked down to the beach bar instead and watched the sunset for FREE.

This gambling recovery is possible but you have to be 100% committed. The choice is yours at the end of the day.

Thinking of you all. Love from Jas xx