2010

Hi Jas. Thanks for the welcome back. Onwards and upwards from here on in. Catch up soon. Thanks again. M

jasmine. . Charity work is definately you. . Your like a "mother theresa" type on these diaries. .always willing to help others. . Keep up the excellent posting lass.

Hi Jas

Thanks for posting on my diary, hope you and your family are well! Not posting as much nowadays but i am learning to live with the urges and not acting on them. Have now gone 209 days with my one and only slip now well over 130 days ago.

Thanks again for all your support and kindness, take care ands xx

Mother Theresa...mmmm lol

Back into my support work with a passion and really happy that I have been able to help...even got a kiss from someone today! A lovely gesture and made everything I do on a volunteer basis "all worthwhile".

Feeling quite motivated right now even though I can't shake this virus off. May even have to go see the Doctor...I hate going to the Doctors......

My post on here has just been interrupted by a call from my sister. She has just had mega urges to gamble online slots. We talked it through from the initial deposit to the carnage at the end of tonight. The urge went....saved.

Stay strong all...Jas x

Hi Jasmine, quote "The urge went....saved." good move! I had the same bull tonight. Stay strong - I hope to get to the chat room very soon again was maxed with the brats tonight running circles round poor old dad. Good thoughts Jasmine - Blocked.

Up all night...waiting to get to see the Doctor.

When I spoke with my sister last night we did a pretend conversation based around one of our gambling online binges, obviously resulting in heavy losses. It was meant as a bit of a joke, light relief maybe from what could have been a serious gambling session. My sister is recovering from cancer and we have discussed gambling addiction, she has finally accepted she has a problem but only after the funds are low and the loans and cards maxed. It had to be a financial decision to "do something about it". I was just wondering why it is that the majority of us on here come for help when all the cash and more has gone? I wondered why, and that's me included, we don't come here after a big win? I won big and I knew I had a problem but I didn't look for help and I don't really understand why that was.

P and I were chatting about the online bingo stuff. On the face of it, it looks like some sort of joke addiction...."what?...you are addicted to what?...online bingo..ha ha" It's no joke, that's because, linked to the bingo are the online slots and these are lethal weapons of mass destruction. I actually worry about the devastation they are causing at this very minute...I used to sneak on them, even at this unearthly hour, but not any longer. The T.V advertising which viewers are bombarded with is criminal. All these new punters, a lot of which I'm sure are women spending, spending, spending and ultimately having a serious affect on the economy as a whole. It won't be long before the s**t hits the fan and we have some government anti-gambling tsar heading a country wide recovery programme. I believe it will happen, just so glad I have done somethinng about it now.

This Morning T.V programme highlighted the plight of a woman who spent £50K in 2 years......I wouldn't even dare post my losses on here. The article said something like...she could lose £200 a day...try £3k. I'm glad I was able to get out of it when I did...yeah, did a lot of financial damage and screwed around with my brain but I'm coming out the other side now.

Work at it day by day...it can be done...there is hope.

Jas x

hi jas

just read ur post i joined here yesterday after watching this morning i was in tears watching it also the tv ads are terrible the online bingo i used to play is on every night at 7.00pm and everytime its on it makes me feel so ashamed and foolish and stupid and if hubby is with me when its on i try to distract him from the tv or i leave the room why do i do that? because of the shame im feeling i guess. like u i was playing not only bingo but the card games and others side games too at all hours but i have noticed now that i im sleepy by about 9pm lol looking forward 1 day at a time ......good luck norma

Hi Jasmine,

"I was just wondering why it is that the majority of us on here come for help when all the cash and more has gone?"

Answer: cos we are addicted gamblers, we enjoy the thrill of being in action it becomes all consuming and we lose touch with reality. For me "nothing mattered" when in action. The only solution is to stop and stay stopped.

Thanks for your support.. S.A 🙂

I knew I was ill and have probably left it too long to go to the Doctors. Pneumonia! Feeling really sorry for myself.

See you in a few days folks...be strong.

Jas x

(((((((Jasmine)))))))))

Bed rest for you then my girl...and please do. Pneumonia is not something to be messed with.

Sending you love and hugs and I hope you feel better real soon.

God Bless

Charly/Sabine xx

Get well soon Jasmine! .. S.A 🙂

can only add to s.a post and hope you feel better soon...your posting on here is a breath of fresh air lass...keep up the good work..

Sorry to hear that Jasmine - hope for you as a very swift recover on the sickness. Sending good vibes and thoughts over. Get well asap. all the best Blocked

I feel so ill...anyone else had pneumonia..feeling really sorry for myself. me, Me, Me again lol.

Have the T.V on and the ads are doing my head in....cash4gold, compensation and the dreaded online bingo. The "bingo" bit, i believe to be a veil to it's true identity. What the sites actually supply is "online slots". I would love to know how many members move onto the "sidegames" when the bingo is in play and it is utterly boring. It's the slots which sapped me.

I feel ill and bored....a lethal combination. P has just paid a bit more off our holiday so no spare in the account...that's good. I wonder at what stage I will be able to leave all this behind and not have it on my mind constantly. I have to be patient I suppose, after all when I was gambling and that was for nealy 14 years it was on my mind constantly so in recovery, perhaps I can expect the same.....recovery on my mind for ever sort of does me in a bit. Yeah, I know the furture is so much clearer and brighter without gambling it's the constant working at recovery which seems to pull me down a little..anyone understand what I'm getting at?

Going to take my medication and try to stop coughing.

Sorry to hear that you are ill. I can fulIy sympathise as I am just getting over a virus infection--lasted since Dec 18th!!.

I fully understand your feelings at the moment. When I have tried--and I have to add- failed in the past I felt down after stopping gambling. Fouteen years is a long time to do something and then just abruptly stop. It has taken me 36 years for what I truly feel has been the penny finally dropping in my brain. Whilst I used to love gambling I now feel I love non-gambling more. Why? I have no idea other than perhaps it is now my time to stop and previously it was'nt.

I think that I am not seeing not gambling as a recovery time--more of what is right for me and quite truthfully the more natural and rational thing for us as well.

Boredom is something we all experience when gambling goes out of our lives. I find that using this site and reading other diaries is a great way to remind you that we all have a lot to be thankful for. As someone else said on their diary would you sonner be here or Haiti at the moment.

Stay positive, keep taking the medicine, smile and soon I am sure you will feel a lot better.

Stumper