2025....... a simpler year...... less scrutinising..... more time for myself

Here i am 9 years into my gamcare journey...... This year i have as allways spent a lot of time thinking about changing my ways...... I've spent a lot of time exercising..... i spent a lot of time analysing my finances...... ive spent a lot of time watching boxsets..... ive spent a medium amount of time playing computer games and eating........ive spent a lot of time with family....... ive spent a medium amount of time with friends......

I can't help but think that i am a bit too hard on myself......but im an obsessive character..... my ocd travels thru most of my life......

Now i've just had my annual review and alls well..... no critism but still i wasnt happy..... they said i was "performing" which is aparently good but i somehow took all those positives and still thought that i wasnt doing well..... im over critical.....

So this year i didnt take drugs, tick, i didnt drink, tick, i didnt smoke, tick, i didnt gamble , tick, i stuck to only spending 100 pounds a month on food and socialising, i was obsessing soo much about my finances and life that i did all this performed well at work,.... ive got a good health mot too and still im not happy/?????

so i feel i need to give myself a bit of a break this new year...... im aiming to only look at my finances once a month......im aiming to not obsess about my spenidng soo much...... to appreciate what i have more i feel i need to loosen the straps a bit and feel the release a bit more....... So if i spend double on food for a bit then soo be it......

However these negatives, this obsession has also got me to where i am....... its helped me in a lot of ways..... it shows i care.... it shows im passionate......its show si work hard (or try hard) at life....... but i feel thinknig too much about everything is hindering me a bit... mainly hindering my time.... time i can spend relaxing unwinding this year....

So in 2025:

Three hours a month spent on looking at finances.......

Ill spend mon, wed, fri night 8-9pm in gym on treadmill and on gamcare chat at same time..... doubling up porductivitiy in that hour..... exercising and socialising.

Friday after work a coffee out to relax.....

Apart from those im going to try to relax more and spend more time watching tv and listening to music..... 

Ill work as hard as i can and try to get the same review next december.....