31st August 2014......

Welcome to the Recovery page Scott. I left a reply on your other page a few mins ago, but will follow you here in future but read my other reply too. Keep it up.

Andy

Hi Andy

Read your other reply mate and appreciate your words of support, "I will" can be my "mantra" all weekend!

Will update on Monday as to how I get on

You certainly CAN ! Spend time with your family, cook a meal, dress nice etc, Just get over this weekend, spoil someone not the bookie ! be your true happy self ! Have a lovely weekend.

Andy

Well, now onto day 5

Couple of urges but feel pretty much in control today, hopefully keep looking in to the site over the weekend, keep the spirits up and come through the weekend "unscathed"

Feel pretty strong at moment, long may it continue

Hi Scott

Very well done on 5 days and and for being so positive

And welcome to this very supportive forum

Keep positive and stay strong

Best wishes

Suzanne x

Hi Scott,

Like you I am on day 5 too. Hopefully we can both make it to day 100 and further!

Wish you all the best

Dj

Thanks Suzanne and DJ, appreciate your words of encouragement

Well onto day 6 now, tough evening last night, Friday and Saturday would generally be when I gambled most, got through it though but can't say huge urges weren't there

Determined though to get through another day, whatever I need to do

S

Hi Scott

Your determination is shining through

6 days today well done

Stay determined and win again today it's makes so much more sense than losing today

Stay strong and positive

Suzanne xx

Thanks again Suzanne

Hope you realise your support looks to be helping a whole load of people, going to take a bit of time later to read through your story as well

Many thanks for the support so far, it's appreciated

Hello Scott! It isn't easy... your resolve is permanently tested! Those urges come....then they go.....they're getting weaker.... you can do this WE ALL CAN! Well do e and keep going. Helen. X

Hi Scott

Thanks for your message and reading my diary

if it has helped you in any way I am truly pleased

It really is an awful secret,selfish and self destructive addiction and what makes it worse is we did not even know we were in the middle of it because we were too much in the oblivion of gambling

Well done on your days of abstaining because it really is the only way our debts will get paid off, my long term gambling debts will take years but once my PD loans are cleared we will be able to live a fairly comfortable life again without watching every penny.

Take one day at a time abstaining and maintaining

Stay strong and positive and think

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP

Suzanne x

Onto day 7 after "surviving" yesterday, I thought about gambling most of the day yesterday, not sure if that is normal or not in early stages of recovering

Was thinking last night about where I was only 2 weeks ago, had burned through best part of 800 pound in a couple of days and for first time in my life, probably through self pity, had a thought cross my mind I would be better not being here, a horrible thought I know

One thing I do know is not gambling has me thinking better thoughts

S

Hi Scott

Well done on over one whole week

Keep going

Suzanne x

Well I managed to get over a whole weekend, must be the first time for about 20 years I have done that, scary

Feel ok today, strange one yesterday, I am close to an uncle of mine who likes a bet, phoned me yesterday to tell me he had won 680 pounds, did feel a bit like I wanted to do that but was glad a big part of my brain was reminding me I had done so many times before but managed to lose it all

Anyway I feel strong again today

Day 8 and wont have a bet today

S