Many times I've said, here's where I no longer gamble and I start my journey, well now I mean it, I'm so tired of feeling this way, hating on myself because I know I doing wrong, yet doing it anyway.
I'm sad about the fact I've hurt the people most close to me, and lost their trust.
All that should be important is so unimportant when all I want do spin the money eating wheels.
And after 6 years I'm so fed up of this, I want my life back, I want to be interested In other things, and most importantly I want some self worth, because all I did have was lost with each and ever spin I played.
Today I gambled ... tomorrow I start a new.
Peace and love to all x
I have felt all the things you have said and i’ve believed that is the end… please sign up to gamstop if you haven’t already… that’s the only tool that has actually stopped me recently and saved my friendships and relationships.
Heya sparks thank you for reply, i signed up to gamestop earlier today thinking even if I was tempted the blocks would give me thinking time if that makes sense. Day 1 and I've got to say doing OK so far, I hope you are too on your road to recovery.
Hi good
hi dave, I think for me I want to gamble when boredom sets in, so I've dug all my old hobbies out of the loft to try and help with that, plus i tend to gamble to just escape reality (as I sure most people here do). my way of life can be frustrating at times, but I think this could be an opportunity to change that too, giving the right frame of mind.
Stay on the path you are on dave I wish you all the best.
Nicola x
Day two done, handed all finances over and put all bank account blocks in place, still not sure how I feel about this, maybe a little childish I guess, at the fact that, I a 42 year old woman cannot be trusted with money, nor do I trust myself in all honesty.
Still I know its the best thing to do, today I focused on, normality, it felt odd to not be sat gambling earlier this evening as that was "my time", instead I created something new, I'm learning to bake, it was quite enjoyable.
One day at a time is all I'm thinking.
Peace n love to all
From nicola ♥
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