@aoxbg6d3ji Well done Roxy 👏👏👏. Keep going strong. 💪.
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
@aoxbg6d3ji Keep fighting Roxy!! Glad to see you are doing well and that 3 months is soon approaching. You've come such a long way in 85 days! Just the mentality and demeanor of your posts alone shows that the work you've been putting in has helped you tremendously. One step and one day at a time, but always moving forward. Don't forget why you started all this in the first place, it might help with the free spins, as maybe you need some more fuel to keep from partaking in those actions. Clearly, you are far better off not gambling, and you are happy 🙂 and being reasonable Roxy (who we really like and support, as I am sure you do to).
Cheers to your successes so far - keep up the positive work and keep being strong for YOU!
JB
Thank you so much pink and JB. It always means a lot to me when people stop by and check in on me. Happily off the free spins and demo gaming now (well for the last week since I stopped). That is just another big step along the road to recovery.
Wishing you both the strongest of wills in your continued recovery, a privilege to be walking down the road at the same time 🙂
Day 89
And I'm on here surfing the crest of an urge wave. I know full well why this is, I'm feeling super anxious at the moment. Job interview earlier and I really want it. Horrible suspicion I was so anxious I didn't give the best account of myself. So trying to tell myself it doesn't matter, I probably didn't get it and that's OK. I have a job anyway, so I'll be fine.
I have all blocks in place and gambling is currently impossible. So I couldn't actually do it anyway, but it doesn't stop the mind starting to mull over any options to overcome it. But I've hard a serious word with gambling Roxy, and now sensible Roxy is re reading her diary and reminding herself why she hates gambling gambling Roxy so much. I think now some mindfulness would be useful, so that's what I'm about to do.
Just for today I will not gamble.
Excellent stuff sensible Roxy. Glad to see you reading your diary and keeping the gambling hatred high. That’s exactly what I do.
Best of luck with the job interview results. Fingers crossed for you. I bet you gave a much better impression of yourself being gf. If you were gambling still you would have been even more stressed and your mind wouldn’t be in it, probably remembering last nights losses. Hopefully they saw the real Roxy, sensible Roxy and it goes in your favour.
Stay strong 💪
Hi Fish, thank you so much for stopping by. Unfortunately I was not successful as I didn't have as much experience as the successful candidate. But feedback was very positive, and am now going for another job that's more for a brand new band 6 but same pay, so fingers crossed 🤞.
Most importantly although it was a knock to my confidence, I did not gamble. And tbf the urge was fairly short lived. Gambling Roxy still showing signs of life, but she's on life support. Not sure I'll ever be able to flip the switch and get rid of her for good, but I'm keeping her squared away and ignoring her.
I was also able to challenge my thoughts and have a resilient mind set (onwards and upwards!). It's not like I don't already have a decent job :).
All in all, it's not going too badly.
Today is day 90.
Just for today I will not gamble.
@aoxbg6d3ji Well done Roxy on day90 👏👏👏.
I am sure you will take being successful at remaining g.f, over being successful for the job you did not get! I am a believer in “everything happens for a reason” so maybe this next job you are going for is more for you 🙏.
Take care and remain strong.
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Thanks pink, you are definitely right, being gf is the main thing right now, and I'm doing very well at it so far. I am a nurse, and there will always be jobs that I can go for. And got a decent job atm, well paid but not what I'd see as "proper nursing", and not with the nhs. But the right job with the nhs is still out there. Will keep applying when I see jobs I think will give me great job satisfaction. And the one I'm meant to have will turn up at some point.
Today is day 94
The counselling from gamcare really has helped, and I have happily now ceased free spins and demo gaming, think that was the final step :). I think I will tell my gamcare counsellor I am ready to go it alone.
So lovely to see new people here who are racking up the gf days.
Just for today I will not gamble
100 days!!!!!!
Nice milestone. Life is so very different now. Rarely get urges, though I still get them sometimes. It's getting to the point now that I feel confident enough to say I know I am never going back to it. My partner still gambles, but my abstention definitely seems to be having a positive effect on him. I'd say in the last 100 days he has been gambling a significant amount less, and now has a savings account and spare money in his account.
He has taken me out today and bought me a lot of lovely things, and it's been a while since he last did that. I have been thoroughly spoiled and I know he enjoyed spoiling me.
To all those struggling, and to those loved ones affected by gambling, my heart goes out to you. This addiction is probably the hardest one out there to overcome, and you must be utterly committed to even have a have a chance of making it (and even then relapses are not uncommon).
I wish you all the strongest of wills.
Just for today I will not gamble.
@aoxbg6d3ji Congratulations on your 100 day milestone Roxy 👏👏👏👏.
What a day to be spoilt rotten too by your partner!👌.
Wishing you continued strength to further distance yourself from your last bet 🙏💪.
Take care.
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Thanks pink, as ever I really appreciate the supportive comments. Sending lots of love and festive wishes to you and yours x
Day 104
Getting to the point that because it has been quite a while since I last had an urge, my entries are becoming less frequent because I feel like I don't have anywhere near as much to talk about. I am not complaining, this is a very positive thing :). I think I will be more likely to post at longer intervals, so maybe day 110 next time.
I still like to come here and read other people's entries. Really brings home what a horrible addiction this is, and how very committed and determined you need to be to beat it.
Stay strong 💪 you all xx
Day 115
Wow! Never thought this would be possible. And life is better in every possible way. In all honesty, I have not been thinking about gambling much at all. I have tumbled head on into my fitness/swimming addiction, and I have been working out a lot.
I just stopped by to let you all know I am still happily chugging along. Sensible Roxy has been at the controls for some time now, and I think that's definitely best. Gambling Roxy and drunk Roxy can bu**er off for good.
Just for today I will not gamble
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