a new chapter

Hai MovingOn

Just to say another day gamble free is enough.

Enjoy your wine

Yes, do enjoy a glass of wine, but do also be careful of it becoming a replacement and allowing it to escalate into a new problem. I have issues with that now as I won't drive while in an altered state and sometimes "make it so" in order not to gamble. That's not healthy either. Keep up the fight!

It is bloody madness what we do to ourselves. It really does beggar belief. When you take a step back and really think about it, it really is madness. Well you have given up on that insanity and i hope you enjoyed that glass of wine or 2 or 3 lol. See you at the check in tomorrow.

😉 can't afford much more than a glass at the moment 😉 xx anyway knackered but another day done. Liking forward to my first 90 day post check in tomorrow and the 2 week mark!' yay me! Best to all xx

Very tired.! Just finished work haven't the energy to gamble even if I wanted to which I don't! 2 weeks gamble free. Xx

Thought I best check in, been working loads but have tonight off. All is well AMD another day done. Moving on xx

Hai MovingOn

Hows about checking in and reporting another day ticked off and 1 more step away from the S***e.

Any new chapter takes a little time to get into, but hai its so worth it.

Dont work to hard and have a good week end

Hey moving on,

Just popping by to say hi. I hope you doing well, make sure you get proper rest after hard working days. It is very important in this recovery.

Looking forward to hear from you soon

Take care

Sandra x

Hello there. Hope ya ok and doing well. Keep checking in and use this site. It's a great tool in this fight for recovery. I've been fighting for a while but know that it's worth the fight as I only ever feel good when I'm not gambling. Look forward to hearing from you soon.

Hi there, had a really busy week and a few urges but keeping strong and trying to stay positive. Been thinking less about gambling which is a good thing I suppose but also been thinking less about not gambling as the feeling of dread, I fear that and guilt have subsided. This I know is a problem as I need those feeling to keep me at bay, and I worry that without them I will revert back to my old ways. I think I need to try and join in some of the chat sessions, it is just a little difficult as I am generally at work when they run. I get paid next week and for me that is a real worry - I fear that I won't be able to stopmyself. I know people have mentioned handing over control of finances but that is not really an option. However I have reduced my credit limit (can't cancel as still using it) to stop me. from running up further debt. I guess this is all part of the recovery process. Feeling a little numb today, but going to keep busy and fight for another day. Hope you are all doing well xx

Hai MovingOn...

A massive good on you for recognising a possible trigger. Stay very close and yep, chatting and spewing your thoughts out are very good, whether its random or not..

I swear by small talk and randomness, works for me. Think very important in company and re learning to relax without the gambling cloud hanging over us. Treat your self next week, this is simply living. Doesnt have to be big, but we're all turning into a new and rewarding chapter, black blue from the previous..

Enjoy your Saturday, a simple reward to saviour.

Wishing you well

Arghh a tough few days gone between hating gambling, to thinking it is the only way out, to hating it - back and forth.... Got my first full months pay from my second job yesterday and it was less than I thought it would be....thought about how much time I had put into working and not much to show for it, hated gambling for the fact I need to do this to pay off debts, then thought £20 deposit could win my life back, then realised it wouldn't be a £20 deposit because it never is! Had a word with myself and asked can I afford to lose £20? No I can't. That put an end to that. Then tonight I had the same thoughts but decided to think of things differently. Rather than counting up the days I need to start counting down- off on holiday on the 23. September and see that as my first goal. Only to the coast. with some friends, caravan - cheap week away for me and the Mr and the boy (dog not son). So been putting a few pounds aside for food and supplies when we go. Rather than chucking that in the slots which I could gave done decided at looking for better ways to spend it. Found a fab website - wont mention it cause not sure on what the rules are but managed to buy about £400 worth of food, household bits etc for £50. This should cover most of the stuff we need for holiday and probably keep us going for the next few months for some of the bits.... A bit worried I may have found a new addiction ;). But seriously that has to be a better way of spending money, actually getting something we need rather than wasting it on a never-gonna-happen-if-it-does-you-still-loose-dream. Anyways too much rambling... Off to bed., another day done and dusted. £50 lighter but a shed load of stuff waiting to be delivered xx

Sounds like you got a great deal there nice one. See you stay strong and don't give in to those urges and you get the rewards. Great stuff. Its great to read people flying along and doing really well but its just as great maybe even more so when you read someone having an urge but fighting back, taking that extra second to really think do I want to do this? How much is this only £20 bet really gonna cost me? And making the right choices. You should be proud of yourself. Counting down is a good idea, give it a try. I'm a bit jealous I've read a few diaries today and your the third that has a holiday planned and it makes me think of how silly I've been over the years depriving myself of things like holidays but on the flip side I really want to go away next year and reading about people going away is spurring me on. I'm determined not to mess it up this time and I will get my holiday. Sorry about the little ramble there lol. Have a great weekend, see ya at the checkin.

Hey moving on:-)

Well all i can say it sounds like fantastic site you found for yourself there:-) shopping online never hurts, especially if good prices.

Glad you fighting those urges away, keep going strong. You can do it!

Day at a time

Sandra x

Hi all, had a tough, tiring and trying week. Felt like giving up several times... But still here and still moving on. Looking forward to the weekend - can hopefully get some sleep zzzzzzz