a new way of thinking

Hi elizabeth,just read your diary,you're doin brilliantly,you've had a tough time of it,but you're coming out a stronger and better person,learning by your mistakes. I don't know wot triggers of this addiction,I put my first memories of gambling back to bein a child at holiday camps playing fruit machines and developing from there,one thing I do know is my 3 year old daughter and unborn child are not gona be exposed to gambling if I can help it,hopefully gambling will be banned for all under 21 year olds by then,but I doubt it. Keep goin strong. All the best Rob.

Thanks rob and hotdogx

Day 4

had a few thoughts about gambling my trained brain working out if i could just spend that and then id have this for the rest of the week etc i need to train my brain to think in a differant way.

The good news being i didnt act on these thoughts.

My wonderful mum is down for a few days so lots of hugs and chats.

Well im tired after a hard days work so sausage and mash for dinner and an early night .

To answer you rob about gambling being banned its a nice thought but its never going to happen last night watching tv i lost count of the adverts for online casinos and bingo sites that sponsor programmes they need to be banned as i can see the problem esculating as pepoles finacical struggles get worse.

How many are going to start sticking on £50 thinking it will pay the rent before they know it a months wages gone in an hour.Sorry got abit morose there but i can see it happening.

Stay strong.x

Day 5 for me and quite a good day today feeling tired from yesterday so havent really had the energy to think about gambling.

Had a very long chat with my mum last night and told her about my diary its great to talk with her as she has been away for two weeks so nice to have her back my rock.

I was suposed to give her £150 today but could only pay £50 as i got my dates mixed up with a customer[im a domestic cleaner]so it wont be till next week now feel abit guilty about that but she was understanding the good part being its not because i gambled it just havent been paid.The ironic part how many times did i use that excuse because i had gambled it.Staying strong for another day,x

Stay strong, sounds like you are enjoying your freedom, I, like you aren't quite there with paying things off but think of the awesome feeling when you have disposable cash to treat yourself, that's my aim for day 50!

Keep up the good work

Jonny

cant wait to get debts paid to my mum she needs it as much as i do but not going to stress they will get paid when they get paid holiday here we come.disposable income whats that?

stay strong.x

liz your doing so so well im very proud of u keep it up xxxx

Hi. Just thought I would stop by to say thanks for the reply on my diary and keep it up. We will all beat this together.. Good luck and you are doing really well

day 6

A good day to day actually the best way to describe it is a normal day.A day where i havent spent the day wondering how im going to get through the weekend because for once i have got money in my purse and i havent got to pay out all my wages for money borrowed during the week its a nice feeling.

thanks guys for the support .x

staying strong.

well done u x

good work liz, keep it up, i feel exactly the same ive actually got money in my wallet and normally id be thinking i can double this and usually end up with nothin but im not even thinkin that! well done liz for going 6 days! x

hi liz ill always be there 4 u through good an bad times sure u dont know me but gamblers tend 2 try help and deep down mos=t r nice peeps inside hugs xx

fb russdeane

Your doing so well, stay strong xxxx

hope ure ok liz hugs x

Day 7 and 8

thanks hotdog im fine,didnt post yesterday as i fell asleep putting little one to bed.

Well a whole week of no gambling and feeling proud of myself a few wobbles along the way but feeling that i can do this .

Just not having that awful stomach churning sickness is great the big black cloud is starting to lift but i need to be careful there is still along way to go.

stay strong.x