8 days gamble free.. Thought about it today for a bit.. We’re in such a mess financially. My mind wandered back to all the times over the past month where I didn’t cash out (approx £3/£4k) and thought if I just put £20/30 on and get a few hundred back.. The idea was tempting ... Then I realised that it was a bad idea to be even thinking that way .. So I snapped out of it and got on with my day. I’m sooooo looking forward to pay day by which point I’ll be 3 weeks gamble free and actually have some spare money after paying everything out.
My husband is still barely speaking to me. I think/pray/hope that will change over time.
Coming on here has really helped me, so I thought I’d start my own ‘recovery diary’.
Onwards and Upwards!!
Hi,
Can I tell you something from a desperate degenerate gambler who was so sick he ended up sleeping rough. The thing you MUST accept, that no matter how much money you win, because of your addiction, you cannot stop. And from my own experience when I had a nice win, I was sensible and paid of my loans etc but after two weeks I was in an even worse mess because the seed is planted not only in my mind, but every compulsive gambler's mind that this is easy, we can do it again. We are sick because we forget about the losses and how terrible we felt. You must forget about the money, it's gone. Please, I wish I could take your illness away so you could live a happy life. I too have had a bad day. Sometimes I feel it's hopeless but we MUST stick together and beat this addiction.
Stu
Congratulations MissP on your excellent progress.
To take some of the pressure of you it is best to be registered with Gamstop etc and try to limit your access to money.
The addiction tries to get us back gambling by any means possible so we need all the help we can get and must always be alert to the danger and take one day at a time.
I wish you every success in getting your life back.
Please take good care of yourself.
Stephen x
Hi Stu.. Thank you for replying to my post. I’m sorry that you’ve not had a good day. I’m assuming you have things in place to not be able to gamble again?
I am trying to forget although it is very difficult.. I most definitely haven’t forgotten how awful I felt after each loss. I swore I would never gamble again so I won’t no matter how much my mind wanders off track!
I hope tomorrow is a better day for both of us.
Hi Stephen, I have signed up and have gamstop in place as well as the software. I’m also starting counselling in a couple of weeks..
I won’t gamble again - I’ve done too much damage already.
I am expecting difficult days ahead but my motivation is my family. My 2 youngest children are oblivious but I won’t put my eldest son or my husband through anymore unnecessary trauma.
Thank you for your kind words and support. It means a lot.
Stay strong and take canterburys advice!! What he/she says is 100% accurate. No matter how much you win, its never enough. One man won 270k pounds to clear his debts. He put it all back in. Its the same for everyone. But you know, youve been there. Lost the desire to gamble!!! Hope you can manage to do the same!
Cheers
Thanks Lows ... One day at a time
Just dont count days and dont use willpower. It isnt a conflict of will. Gamblers are WILLFULL! They steal money, and use all their money in urges to gamble. Thats very willfull. You see how willpower has nothing to do with being quit?
We are non gamblers the day we set ourselfs to be! See the vile gambling as it is: A brainwashing, sickening and an illusory evil!!
Double digits! Day 10!!!
Still makes me sad when I think of what I’ve done, I think it always will.
My husband’s given me a second chance which is a HUGE relief as I honestly thought it might be the end for us..
We’re slowly starting to get back on track.
10 days ago when he caught me (again) I thought it was the worst thing ever.. turns out it was the best thing.
I think I was that far in, I would never have had the courage to come clean myself.
This site is amazing, it helped me so much in the first few dark days..
Looking forward to a gamble free life!
Day 15!!
It’s not been hard for me not gambling just dealing with the aftermath.
My husband doesn’t trust me which I totally understand but it’s just difficult because I really have no intention of ever gambling again.
I have used Gamstop and Gamblock. I can’t even get onto the lottery website (which I told him)
Sent him a screenshot today where I tried to get onto 2 diff online casinos. It just brings up a blank screen.
I told him that I have no intention to gamble, that the thought genuinely hadn’t crossed my mind but I said that even if I did want to, I couldn’t anyway.
My son still won’t talk to me which is really upsetting.
I’m sure things will get better with time.. I sure hope so anyway!
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