Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Here here!

Yo Duncanmac,

Love your uplifing spirit we will all beat this if we keep highly spirited and upbeat about this, of course they will be times when its bad thats why we need to spend some quality time on here to reflect, as you say so many of us doing so well! Let's keep it up

Day 58, awesome job, Keep going !

PS... It's so not fare you getting half of Dusty's chocolate, sooooooooo jealous now...hehe

Keep strong DM, my best for today to you!

Pete

Morning,

Best wishes to you and yours. Hope you were upto dishing up those extra cuddles yesterday. Times like this make you realise how important our families are to us.

Just wanted to say, hope your back is feeling a bit better , in time for the celebrations this weekend. That is of course if you are included, my girls would not need me out on there birthday celebration , think I cramp their style. Can't see why lol ( maybe its the wings)

Take care

Dusty

day59

I thank you for your kind words they really do lift my spirit,i know there will be days when things wont run to plan and I know those days will be when that demon trys to break my spirit, but be warned mr demon i am so well armed that I can tell you that you will not win ever.

today no bet.

dusty every day i feel i celebrate freedom!!

duncs stepping forward.never back.

We all have our good days and our bad days.

As long as we don't gamble, we can cope with the bad days.

And as for the good days, well, they really are worth waiting for!

GT

Hi Dunc

Good to see you have still not gambled. You have finally found an enjoyment in recovery away from gambling. Enjoy your time and enjoy your family. Continue helping other recovering gamblers and with this you'll continue to help yourself.

You can do this mate. Thank you for your continued support, means the world to me.

Keith

day60

gt I should have that printed on a t-shirt

love it.

keith my valued friend you are so right I have found things to do outside gambling and that is I enjoy life,I mowed the lawn today and at the same time tidied the neighbours garden they have a baby and no time for it,today i did and all because i can.

today NO BET.

tonight i am going to a poetry reading with my son the young poet laureate of portsmouth(Sorry but i am so proud) and the reading is called "THE LOST HOUR" for me how apt I lost many of them!!! but no more.

duncs compulsive gambler 60 days stepping forward never back.

Duncan,

Thanks for your post on my diary page.

Well done on reaching day 60.

Enjoy tonight's reading with your son-no need to say sorry about the pride you feel.

Maybe a glimpse into a very bright future for him

day61.

NO BET TODAY.

too nice outside to say much more,rode out with my two boys this morning,watched the local parks football then home for lunch,put a curry on to cook for the next 6 hours whilst i finish the garden and just enjoy life.

today i ask myself WHY DID I EVER GAMBLE! this is worth so much more!!

duncs stepping forward.

Grats on 60 days buddy. I'm 100% confident we'll see you write 600 days clean. You're going to be just fine as you're in a great place and you're keeping a safe distance away from the past. I am really pleased for you.

Yo Duncs

Just sending you a high five on your 60

Hope the backs improving , and the poetry night went well

Take care

Dusty

One big hug on its way, from not just me but you and yours

Green and blacks ?

Dusty. 🙂

DAY 62.

Well I got through a weekend which started on friday afternoon in the library watching the documentary on the i player with tears running down my face.My father i have not spoken to for 14 yrs the last time i saw him about 3 months ago he walked into a bookies i used to frequent and i walked out,ran away fearing more hurt. I have stopped running from the mess i made of my life 62 days ago but knowing my father is a cg i have still made no contact,and truthfully there is so much i need to fix for myself i wont be anytime soon. Then onto home to spend the night panicing that have i inflicted this terrible addiction onto my children PLEASE NO, then went to bed feeling alone again.This weekend has shown me I am yes a compulsive gambler and what I need to do is make the right choices for me!!then those i love will also enjoy this ride. Yes i could ruin it all by having a punt returning to that self loathing,lying,cheating good for nothing but I choose to say today NO BET.I with honesty cant tell you if my 3 kids will be cg's like me and my father and all I can do is continue to be honest with them about this the one thing I ever regret that is having a punt letting it rule so much of my life,and be there Dad i will love them unconditionally along with my beautiful wife and I know this will remain true if today just for today i say NO BET!!

duncs striding foward.learning,living,loving.

Hi Duncan

Yeah, i watched the documentary on beeb3 the other night. Good viewing and quite intriguing for non CGs to have an insight into our lives. Didn't learn anything i didn't already know, anyone of those people could have been me when i was in action. I share the same anxiety as you that my children will also become CGs. I will do everything in power to stop my kids ever playing a fruit machine which for me was where it all began.

Take care mate, hopefully see you soon

Hi Duncan

Tahnks for popping by on my diary. This addiction is incredibly hard to get a grip of but once you have it I believe it is easy to keep hold of. I used to try to hard to stay stopped and always ended up going back. Inow accept it is there and self exclude so I don't have any choice.

Relationships in childhood play a big part of who we are as adults. My father was and still is a ******** of whom I have very little time for and yet he has a hold over me like no other. I accept is as much as I can and I speak with him on some level. Like you I never spoke to him for 10 years or so. It hurt me more than him as I believe he has no heart! However I have to live my life and let him do his thing. I try not to focus on gambling or on the other side of the coin of not gambling. I beleive if we concentrate on not gambling it is still gambling related thoughts. All we can do is keep trying and hopefully we will find peace of mind one day. I get glimpses of it at present so I'll keep doing what I'm doing.

Take care