Aegretudo Egretudo !

Hi DP,

Keep going my friend. We all know how hard is to stand back up, but it's the main thing in recovery - never give up giving up. You can do it and you will!! Stay strong

Have a peaceful and safe weekend

Sandra x

DP

fella gutted to read you went back at it,seems that you were not quite done with losing.

So what will be different this go??

Only you can make the change my friend

Only you can decide the day you want to stop,really stop the losses,the self loathing and the mind f**k that is our compulsion to gamble.

I look back at the twenty years I went at it,the countless walks of shame,the lies that came from them.

The biggest one was I lied to myself, every time I walked away potless I vowed that was it I was done gambling.

Truth is I let my gambling come within a day of losing everything I had, financially it did take all I had to give and more.

Today I know what I would stake if I went at it,that being my family, something at any odds are simply not something I am prepared to wage.

I hope your gambling does not take you to that place,it is truly dark,something I would not wish upon anybody.

Especially you my friend.

With honesty

Duncs stepping forward never back

Thanks Duncs/Sandra/tryer,

Really appreciate your words of support, again Duncs your articulate assesment of my current plight is accuracy personified. There will be no difference this time and to that end i am trying to stop again, today is my second day. I will beat this i am certain, everyones help is so much required and gives me immense strength.

Dark Place /

Day 3, keeping my focus on work ! cannot think about gambling, need to get through the first week and then things will become easier again. Dark Place

Slipped again, today is day 1 🙁

DP

fella I will say this you seem to be in a pretty bad place at the minute,gambling has it's grip tight on your mind.

The bottom line is only you have the power to change your 'luck'

A word I used up long ago,mine spent in the futile outcome of an event I dont and never did control.

Recovery gifts you resolve.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Day 1 ! Again !

Stop looking dark place I know when I start looking at form I'm dogs meat (your words not mine) ....

You can do it you have before...

The bear x

Thanks Chum Bear,

Today is day 1 for real, not loking at any form, i have to get back on track before it destroys me. Have a great weekend all.

Dark Place

DP

INSANITY

to do something over and over and expect the outcome to be different.

I hope that form guide does not stand in the way of your choice.

Bottom line for me is you can study it as long as you like,the outcome will always be a random one,something you have no control over.

Yet to still chase it,why??

To be a winner.

Abstinence offers this

Constantly

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hey my friend.... I am mustering all of the strength and positive energy I can and am sending it straight over the ocean to you. It seems your "record' is skipping.... just stuck in the wrong groove .... so try to dust it off to get the song progressing again. You can do this! Please try, try, try.... distract yourself .... move your mind to other matters. You've done it before and you can do it again. Thinking of you! (((DP)))

Dear Carla and Duncan

Thank you for the words of support and advice, i am happy to report this is day 3. Temptations have been terrific but i chose not to gamble. i need to be able to stand by my friends here with self respect and clean of this hideous affliction. Your support helps give me the strength to fight.

Dark Place

Hey DP,

Keep at it, nice and steady back on your two feet. Hope you are having relaxed and peaceful weekend.

Take care and keep making the right choice

Sandra x

Great start! Am happy to hear you've been "a good boy"! 🙂 I will continue sending positive vibes your way. For me, I will be thinking of your posts at the end of the month. I will remember your anguish and know that I will feel the same if I screw up again. Keep fighting, my friend!

Day 4

Thank you Carla, you are my gaurdian angel ! we can do this together, need to beat this.

Had lovely weekend with the family, took isaac to legoland 🙂 he loves it there. Not one thought of gambling, getting easier again. Have a great week all.

Dark Place