Aegretudo Egretudo !

Hi DP,

Just dropping by. Hope all is good with yourself and you are staying strong. Drop us a line when you can, really wish you well and supporting you all the way.

Sandra x

Good morning diary, i have been on a roller coaster of emotions and spent to long a time away from here..... winning , losing, winning, losing, winning and now stopping. My children come to stay with me from finland next wednesday and i do not want to spend 5 precious weeks with them and my other dear son in the mental grip of punting. Tis is as good a time as any to try and stop this madness again.

Thank you everyone that remembered me while i have been away and i am sorry for not being in touch notwithstanding i am back and i hope this time for good.

Day 1 starts in earnest, Dark Place

Hi DP

So good to see you back posting, please stay and kick this habit to the backside for good. Slips are painful experience but not as painful as continued sliding down oblivion.

Stay strong soldier, all we can do is keep trying and never giving up.

Keep posting and let's march on to this bespoke road of recovery. No looking back

Take care

S x

Day 1 again today, slipped yesterday ! i have to keep trying.....

Hi DP,

Never give up giving up.keep trying my friend, your life is worth so much more than the misery gambling gives. Best and most rewarding things in life are for free. You can do it!!

Day at a time...just keep pushing it will get easier

Sandra x

Dp

Fella it seems the act of self gifted madness kept a hold upon your mind my friend

Like Sandra said never give up giving up.

I know one day you will turn on the light which will show you the way forward

That for us is to remove the destructive act of gambling from our lives

Because when you do see it,you will see what a futile waste of time it is

I myself took twenty years of repeating the madness to see it

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Here we go again.... trying another time to get back on track ! wont be easy but I need to for my sanity.

Day 1 starts today in earnest.... have a good day all, Dark Place

believe in urself you can do it

Good Morning Diary

I have woke up today with the sun shining, my mind state is one that epitomises strength and resolve. I am ready to make the right choices and strike an end to this madness of gambling. Duncanmac writes so intuitively on his diary, he is totally right that it is that little part of our heads that tries to take over and giveth disaster time and time again ! well I am sending that demon away now in a part of my head where it can cower in shame, I am moving on with my life. No more soul destruction, I am casting away this evil spell ! day 1 and a New Dawn awaits me. It is an honour to fight this addiction with other lost souls here, I hope I can be a renewed strength to others in my fight.

Dark Place

Hi dark

I take my hat off to you because you never give up in giving up and that is definitely a positive for you

A new dawn sounds good and sooo positive well done for not letting it best you

Suzanne xx

Morning DP

fella I won't bang the drum about blocks,honesty and courage because you know the drill my friend.

Gambling beat me up pretty bad on more occasions than I could write about,funny I couldn't see it,I just kept going back for another dose.

the outcome the same,the self gifted mind f**k,the self loathing and the ever increasing financial loss.

My advice to you fella,gift recovery a quarter of the time you gift gambling

The results will astound you.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Sat at Helsinki airport day 3 of my new life ! I am gifting recovery and telling that sickening addiction it can kiss my sweet asse behind !

No more swimming in a whirlpool of self deluded madness. As Duncan says, i made a choice and i cannot stop winning !

Morning DP

Great positive post

Have a positive strong and sane gambling free day

Well done

Suzanne xx

Hi DP,

Great to see you around the forum and even better to read your determination and strength. You are doing it, never give up freaking fight. You're simple worth all the best in this life. No time for turning back, onwards and upwards - keep winning and reaping the benefits of the abstinence.

Have a safe flight!!!!!

S.x

Good morning diary, day 4 arrives and my journey renascence has started in earnest.

Thank you to everyone writing words of support, it truly is a great help. Good flight back from Finland yesterday and straight into work, evening ended with a lovely indian take away (chicken vindaloo) and hard earnt sleep thereafter. No time to think about the futile act of punting, shower now then off to work for getting some more hard earnt as my good friend duncan says.

Have a great Friday everyone, i made the choice and i wont stop winning. Dark Place /