Day 42
Racking them days up ! being tested to the limit.... was given 3 tips yesterday, all of them won ! gave them to friends who think I am a superstar ! how far from the truth.....
Hate it ! hate everything about it, why did I pass them on ? I felt compelled to..... pleased they all had a big pick up anyhow.
Have a great day all, Dark Place
Day 43
Early hours of the morning and all is well, sleep well all.
Dark Place
Attended counselling again today and feel this is really helping me to understand why I was gambling. A lot of work to do on self esteem, assertiveness etc. but will get there.
No thoughts of gambling, and actually have a little money to take grandson out for the day tomorrow , which is thrilling.
Best wishes to those on this difficult journey. jean x
Evening diary, day 44 almost over.
Been in London all day for business, now in bed with my dear son who is unwell.
No time for gambling, just time for my family. Good night all.
Dark Place
Dp
Fella thanks for the kind words upon my thread,they do mean a great deal.
As I have written many times I am privileged to have been able to have my eyes opened through this journey and have met some amazing folk who only add to the gift that is abstinence.
We connect with each other beyond the damage addiction brought.
The compulsion to gamble for me is a great leveler it knows no prejudice it will take what the addict has to give and some,there background not taken into consideration,just what addiction can take,from us all to a man it takes our soul,our zest for life,our ability to live a life.
Abstinence offers the polar opposite
a gift that never stops giving.
Keep taking the rewards fella
And if you are ever in the fine city of portsmouth I would gladly share a pint or a coffee and a good natter.
Look after yourself fella,that way the knock on will always be a positive one.
Most of all enjoy the rewards of your efforts
Duncs stepping forward never back
Morning diary.
Thanks duncs for your post, day 46 arrives with not even a hint of a scare, to much to lose now. Restful weekend before busy week ahead, still fighting off this chest infection too.
Wishing everyone a fantastic weekend, Dark Place
47 days, would you adam and eve it !
Big day today, west ham need to beat the hoops and justify the plaudits for our new attacking style of play.
Pub at 2 with copiuous amounts of stella and darts followed by the main event. Have a great day all, i made the choice and i am winning every day, Dark Place /
Day 48
in for the long haul, great weekend without placing any of my hard earnt to those robbing f#c*ks bookies.
West Ham outclassed QPR yesterday so a thoroughly enjoyabl day, off to the port of shoreham today. Have a great week everyone, Dark Place
Hi DP
Well done on 48 days.
Keep going
Suzanne xx
Hey DP
Yep, robbing b******s got me again lol but hey am i not a fighter? f**k them and all of the industry. Hurt but not beaten! !!
Sorry for a little rant lol. Thank you for your lovely message. Am over the moon for you my friend, you are doing it so just be proud - ur worth it.
Keep it up
Sandra x
Day 49
No retreat no surrender to gambling, life is getting better by the day. Life is very special, taken me almost a life time to realise it.
Dark Place
Day 50 Big achievement !
Onwards and upwards now, must stay focused...
Dark Place
Day 52.
Laying in bed with a stinking cough, little Isaac has it too 🙁 still at least i am not punting, now that would make me feel extremely unwell.
Probably work from home tomorrow, then weekend arrives and my 2 children from Finland come to stay with me for their half term, Wonderful ! i have all the time and calmness of mind to spend with them. They will get the best of me, no less ! they deserve it.
Time to rest my head, good night all. Dark Place
Hi DP
Hope you are feeling better today.
Have a fantastic family time with your kids.
Being gamble free for 52 days has made it possible for you to be at your best with them, be very proud. DP, because the rewards we get through abstaining are sometimes very simple and they are FREE, and that is just being normal and 100% committed to our family without the destructive thoughts of gambling in our head.
Well done DP
Suzanne xx
Day 54
Kids arrived safely from Finland, all is well and happy to spend time with them ! no beers for 10 days ;-/ have a great day all with your friends/loved ones whoever but not the hand of the devil gambling ! he will destroy your life and anyone that shares part of it ! don't let it happen anymore.
Dark Place /
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