Well here I am again.
I just cannot get control of it. I just keep getting hooked.
Well tomorrow is the last time I give up.
My wife has just started a new job and I refuse to bet her money. thats just wrong.
I am off on a weekend away with the family this weekend and we want to enjoy it, not the distraction of me betting.
We are off to Disneyland Paris next month and I cannot lose our money for that.
Then we have christmas.
Then there is the fact I dont need to bet to be happy.
One final try and this time I will beat this vile addiction.
Mba
Mark
Fella you need to put all your cards on the table.
Gambling addiction is nothing to be ashamed of, honesty will open the door to recovery and shut addiction on the other side.
Commitment to recovery is a life choice, one which will never stop rewarding your effort.
Please don't walk the path I did, because I am the most fortunate fella alive to have my loved ones by my side today to share my recovery
The truth is that there are so many who gambled their families away.
Don't become a statistic of addiction.
Abstain and maintain.
Fella you have my email address.
Please don't hesitate to use it if I can help.
Duncs stepping forward never back
Truth is so few understand how bad this addiction can really get. Use all the help you can Mba
Welcome back Tri
Welcome back friend,
Rooting for you, to kick gambling where it hurts way down in the gutter 🙂
Suzanne xxx
Ah thanks for the kind words from you all.
Three familiar names who are now doing so well in that recovery.
I remember a good few months ago I thought I had it beat but I keep going back. Its the mobile internet that gives me the opportunity and I keep failing.
You are so right Dunc about families but you may be the luckiest to still have yours then I am a close 2nd.
My wife has gone back to work 5 days a week. If I hadn't gambled all our money she wouldnt have had to go back let alone for 5 days. It's my fault and it hurts me that she has to do it all because of my selfishness and stupidity.
I really don't deserve anything if I bet again. Shes earning £30 a day and working hard all because of me.
This is it.
Day 1 and im still reeling from losing money yesterday that could have really helped my financial situation.
But the every cloud and here I am again and I believe it was meant to be.
Onewards and upwards
Mba
Day 3 .
Moody times but still abstaining.
Sorry to hear of your ongoing struggles Mark.
Time to stop trying to tackle this on willpower alone maybe? Lots of help out there, use it. Theres no weakness or shame in accepting you cant do it alone. I spent 30 years believing that i should be able to control my urge to gamble with zero success for any sustained abstinence.
You have a life threatening illness, one that untreated will destroy you & everyone close to you. Give yourself the best possible chance of getting well.
Dan
Keep at it mba. You have Disneyland to look forward to, make sure you give the family a great time there. Then you'll be proud and happy with that when you return. Keep those thoughts and visions with you.
Also try and buy a book called The Law Of Attraction by Michael Losier. Probably get it for a few quid on E-Bay/Amazon.
Very good advice from Dan, my friend, this addiction is progressive and dangerous,
Time to do whatever it takes now, if you are 100% committed to recovery.
Stay strong and let it beat you for once and for all, then draw the line,and let it all go, the more we lose the more we lose,
Suzanne xxx
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That may well be the answer.
Time is definitely a great healer. 147 days I cicompleted last year and it got easier then I got complacent.
Feeling happier today on day 4. Such a long way to go....
Mba
Hi MBA. Next time you are tempted to log in, and if you get as far as that deposit page, just picture in your own mind how your wife has to go to work for the day just to make £30 worth of whatever you are about to deposit. If you can keep that image in your head I guarantee you will not want to hit the confirm deposit button, no matter what the amount would have been!!
Stay strong mate I'll keep an eye on your diary, I will be rooting for you to beat this horrible horrible addiction.
Well done, pleased to read you are feeling happier.
Keep strong.
Suzanne xxx
My wife messaged me today saying its so hard juggling home work, kids and work.
Really does make me think and is a perfect reminder as to why I cannot bet.
Day 5 and the initial phase of feeling depressed and unhappy is definitely passing.
Mba
Hi Mba,
Thanks for your message, x
6 days today, each day will get slightly better, be kind to yourself, think positive now, and don't dwell on the negatives.because this addiction will thrive on it, it may be hard now because you feel guilty about your wife, but dwelling on it will make recovery harder as the addiction, will keep telling you lies.
It is tough at times my friend, but is truly worth it, abstaining and maintaining is the only way we win.
Take care and keep strong.
Suzanne xxx
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