Another Relapse..

Don't worry about the relapse I have done this so many times I hit rock bottom over the weekend spending £2300 on roullete chasing losses now I have nothing I'm in day 2 and finding it very hard but just keep going all the days we don't gamble all the time we save money we save and one day when ur ready u will *** it forever I can only hope this is my time here and now cause the way I feel today and over the weekend can't be good for my health atall good luck friend

Sorry Mikey but Nikki does need to worry about the relapse. Far too many people on here just keep saying it's ok it's ok and I am afraid such madness is not ok not for Nikki and not for you.

By the way when will you finally realise you cannot win long term. Wise up, stop trying to make easy money and start putting a proper effort in.

I wish you both well with whatever you decide.

Dave

Hi Nikki harsh words from daveuk , but i think he is mostly right , i understand you when you say that you are scared that you cannot control yourself , i to was scared that i could not stop gambling in fact i was more scared that i could not stop myself gambling than i was bothered about the money i was loosing , at least though and i think although its now the start again for you to stopping ie day 1 today or tomorrow , i do think you need congratulating because i think it has now hit home to you that you know you will never get your money back by gambling , and that if we gamble we loose and that we cannot win because we cannot stop after starting to gamble. good lick with your councilor dont give up . ps i dont really understan that vitual second life gambling lark and in the nicest possible way i dont want to but if you are able to gamble on there , do yourself a favour close the site down permenantly self exclude if they will let you and self exclude from every site you use and every site possible also big thing for later that might help ask them to self exclude you from every linked site to the ones you are using, sorry to ramble, keep going .

This is horrible...

I believe on second life there is these bingo machines on there that let you play for a virtual currency called 'linden dollars' that can be exchanged for real money back and forth, It's very easy to do on there because it doesn't look like like its gambling when it in fact is...

What makes it even worse... Kids can even go second life and do the same since there is no restrictions imposed by the website.

I've myself has had another relapse of being something like 3 weeks clean on when I was supposed to be clean for 2014... That's gone and dusted too.

Nikki... You need to stay away from SL if possible to prevent you going on these stupid machines that are on there, they only suck in your money just like any form of gambling.

Mikey?

thanks for your support its very kind of you and i greatly appreciate it.

Dave?

Kinda harsh yes but at the end of the day its exactly what i need as its true i need to worry about this relapse because its killing me everyday the lies and denial i keep to myself.

Stacey?

You are absolutely right..i should just uninstall this d**n second life because im losing way more money than im even earning on here via fishing for lindens..i wont bore you guys with the details but put it this way..sure i can earn about a hundred linden a day by casting for fishes..but i have to buy my worms which end up costing me like a hundred linden a day otherwise i cant fish. so basically its a never ending cycle cant earn a profit i suppose

another thing is when ive earned my share i just gamble it away in the gaming sims hoping i can double it or what ever so best bet really is to just get rid of it once and for all

nikki

Funny reading your thread I felt like it was in another language!! lol( this forum is my only connection with the world of computing)

For me Dave makes a point that does need saying, the compulsion to gamble manifests it's ugly self in many ways, for me the outcome will always be the same.

Losses and chasing those losses.

equaling misery.

That is why for me it is and will always be unacceptable to gamble, because the facts are there in black and white.

I am a compulsive gambler

I cannot win because I cannot stop.

For some gambling can exist in their lives with out the devastating fallout, that is a choice only you can make.

Bottom line is recovery is bespoke, you have to tailor the journey to suit you, eliminate the thing that causes the destruction and enjoy the outcome.

duncs stepping forward never back

hi , its so crazy this addiction , takes us to another level of understanding our own mind,how is it possible to be so naif that we believe blindly that we are going to win whatever we think will make us happy,cause you know ,when life commands us to be happy i reckon gambling doesn't make sense to be part of it... i stopped smoking and gambling 9 and half weeks ago,i got those crazy ideas all the time ,lets just do this,or if i had a f*g now ,would be great,and honestly its so hard to say no...i kept strong today ,and its the best feeling of all,be free,don't give him a chance ,him is a monster who collects all your efforts ,there is no happiness in a gambling shop ,trust me,i was a addict for more then 20 years ,i spend enough to buy a couples of houses,probably plus a few cars,i spend more then most of people earns during they whole life,i am a changed person,so much that every day i learn a bit about me,please be strong ,trust me ,its much better the urges then the losses!

hey guys im back..been a few days since i had my relapse..my efforts really were misguided and dreadful..ie gambling hoping for an easy way out. sucks i had to chase my losses and make us in deeper than we were before. one thing is for sure..im done with it all as i have no hope for it..does me and my family no good and turns out worse when i have to lie to keep myself from a heated argument.