April Fools!

Day 32.

A very good day for me today - thank you God!🙏😇. Firstly, I went to my dental appointment after what I thought, I had broken a big piece of my back tooth off. Turned out I hadn’t but that it just need filing down AND my dentist who is great said “no charge for this”! 👍. I was expecting it to cost me an arm and a leg so this was great news to hear. 

Secondly,  I received an email this afternoon to say my Security Clearance for the interview I had passed for the Home Office, Passport Office had been granted! 🥲.  I was beyond pleased and relieved about this. There was a box that you needed to tick and comment in if you considered to ever have had significant financial difficulties.  I answered openly and honestly and spoke to someone on the phone there also.  I really did think I was scuppered, having so much debt due to gambling but hey ho, my honesty has served me well and the clearance has come through super quick. 👌. This will now get me nearer to a start date - in one of their passport offices which is literally at the bottom of my road. 👌. Still a lot for me to think about, leaving my already 20 year current job (a job that is relentless and super stressful), to go to one with a whole lot less pressure, full time so quite a bit more money and as I mentioned, only an 8 minute walk away from my home.

Today has been a good day - spent with lovely family members and receiving two great pieces of news! I am calm and have piece of mind, knowing that none of my hard earned money has gone to gambling.

Love and strength to you all.

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

So happy for you pinky. Looks like we both had a good day yesterday. So nice to see the rewards of not gambling coming to the forum. Some big steps ahead for both of us it seems. As long as we continue to not gamble our lives will be much healthier. Congrats on everything you’ve achieved so far. Lets keep fighting this fight together 💪

@p6z38njbqm Thanks Fish. 🐟. Yes, let’s keep rolling with the punches and fighting this fight together indeed! 💪🙏.

Take care.

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

Day 33.

Feeling content today. 🙂. Had a nice walk and back into the town, to M&S with my sister. We both treated ourselves to some new socks!!😝. Felt so nice, just buying something as simple as this, knowing none of my latest salary has been spent on gambling 👌.

My son arrived earlier for the bank holiday. Tomorrow, my sister will join us for drinks and nibbles 🥂🍾 and then stay for tea so that will be nice 👍.

Just started watching Homeland with my son - he has already watched it once but he got me signed up on Disney+ on my t.v so really happy about that!💙. So far, I have watched the first three episodes. 👌.

Good night God bless all. Stay safe and enjoy your bank holiday weekend.

”April fools - no more the fool”!

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

Day 34.

What a beautiful, bright and sunny Bank Holiday Sunday it has been. 😎🌞. Spent a lovely day with my son and my sister 👌. Had a chilled evening watching more Homeland. Feeling tired now but more to the point - feeling tired and content. No anxiety relating to gambling so that’s good enough for me right now.

Night all. Stay safe and gamble free.

”April fools - no more the fool”!

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

@lrw50 Hi there. I know we said we would both check in after we were both paid at the end of April.  Hope all ok with you.

Take care.

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

Hi 

Not great I'm.afraid ..  but day 3 not gambling... had a bad few days last week so didn't manage to not gamble when I was paid .   My god I've felt awful.    But... onwards and upwards x. Ps your doing great well done ! 

@lrw50 Sorry to hear this but I am sure most of us on here have not succeeded on our first, second, third time etc but the main thing is that we do not give up!  I assume you do not have the necessary blocks in place? If not, it may be worth having a think about that 🤔.

Well done on 3 days though - much better than zero days 👌.

Sending you strength and prayers. 💪🙏.

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

Day 35.

Another nicely chilled and enjoyable day today. 👌. Went to Dunhelm with my son - he has been wanting for ages, (well years actually), to buy a couple of frames for his degree photograph and degree certificate. He gained a First Class with Honours, reading History. I was a very proud Mamma that day, that’s for sure.🥲💙. He must take after me! 🤣🤣🤣🤭.

The only time gambling came to mind today, was when I went on the group chat this evening and some of them were talking about slots etc (never had a problem with them myself). I felt quite detached from the conversation but I appreciate how for others, this would be good to discuss and share their experiences. It was good to chat however and everyone (including myself), was very supportive. 👌. I stayed chatting for half an hour then my cuppa and my new favourite chocolate - M&S chocolate covered peanut clusters, were screaming out to me! 😋.  Like I have said before, it has just been nice to buy myself little treats and enjoy them, instead of spending virtually a whole month of being skint! Never again!!

Back in work tomorrow - a meeting first thing miles away, followed by a one to one session in the afternoon back ant my base and then a group session with my co-facilitator in the evening! 😴😴😴. Give me strength Lord. Still, nothing in comparison than that feeling of exhaustion from no sleep due to gambling into the early hours like I did last month. 👎.

Take care all. Stay safe and make your day a happy, gamble-free one. 🙂.

”April fools - no more the fool”!

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

Day 36.

A long day…. Early start travelling to a meeting, followed by an evening session and not getting home until nearly 9.30pm! 😴. On the plus side - what a lovely, sunny and bright day it has been. 👍. Wfh tomorrow at least so that’s a bonus. 👍.

Night God bless all. 😴😴😴

”April fools - no more the fool”!

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

Day 37.

Feeling absolutely shattered. 😴. Aftermath of a really long day/eve yesterday, followed by report writing today, amongst other tasks. 😕.

I did something today that I haven’t done for a long time (and very rarely do) - went to McDonalds!! Was wfh and just thought “it’s only five minutes along the coast road”! Got large everything!🤣🤭. Was just nice to have a change of routine and yet another small treat that I could afford and didn’t break the bank. 👍. I really enjoyed it too. 😋. Means I don’t have to think about cooking anything for dinner and save on my electricity 🤣🤣. Just a cuppa and a Kit Kat later - four fingered one only though. Nothing else will do. 😋.

A little gambling thought came to mind in the early hours when I could not sleep.  I don’t know why but just thought about buying a scratch card!?? Decided to read some diary threads instead and use the money to buy my McDonalds instead. Happy Days.  May join the group chat later.

Take care all and remember, it’s not a crime if gambling thoughts come to mind, just don’t act on them!

”April fools - no more the fool”!

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

Day 38.

Feeling extremely tired after a very long day at work but otherwise, all good. 👍.

Take care everyone.

”April fools - no more the fool”!

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

Day 39.

What beautiful weather today. 👌😎🌞. Went for a nice walk with my sister and then back to hers for cuppa and cake, followed by a couple of spritzers in her lovely garden. 👌. We had a chat about it almost being a year since she suddenly and tragically lost her beautiful son. We are all still trying to get our heads around it/come to terms with it all.💔💙😢. 

Tomorrow my sister and friend are coming to mine for drinks and nibbles so hopefully the weather will be good again and I can have my patio doors open onto my balcony🤞. My son is then visiting on Sunday and staying over so hopefully we can get out for a nice walk along the coast.

Everything nice and calm and “normal”.  What more can I ask for right now!

Take care all and have a safe weekend.

”April fools - no more the fool”!

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.

Hi pink lady, thankyou for your post on my diary.

I'm so sorry about your loss, grieving can be tough, I lost a daughter and recently lost my mum, don't think you ever get over it, but in time you learn to cope better. Hope your sister is doing OK.

Its a beautiful day again today were I live, hoping its the same were you are so you so you can enjoy the weather with your sister and friend.

Will pop onto chat soon.

Have a lovely weekend

Stace xx

Thank you so much Stace.  People like you know exactly what my sister and our family are going through right now. Thank goodness we have each other and live so close to each other. 🙏. It has been particularly difficult as we are approaching his first anniversary away from us and my sister’s heart just bleeds for his wife and their beautiful 5 and 10 year old daughters. 😢💔💙.

Yesterday was gorgeous and yes, I did spend it with my sister and friends and we did have some laughter too! 👌.

Take care Stace and so will I.

Pink Lady. 🩷🍎.