Back after a year.

Day 15

All good today another day in the bag, pretty much nothing to report feel strong about not gambling so I will leave it at that

I will not gamble today

TH

Day 18

Have not been on in a couple of days just checking in feeling pretty good at the moment, going away for a couple of days dont know if I will be able to get on here so today I will not gamble

TH

Well done, keep up the great work TH. Enjoy your couple of days away and keep them GF

46 and out

Back on the horse has it been 4 months?

Day 10 today, I am posting to give myself a target to aim for. Every 10 days I will post on here as a sign I have passed another 10 off my list. I have been thnking that this is the most personal jouney one can embark on and so far I have failed monumentaly every time I have tried, I dont think of myself as a weak person but when it comes to this I am, I need constant validation and if not I defer to the routine of I will escape and bet on this or that.

Fear is a great motivator and I have that I will lose my wife, my child over what? me trying to predict the future for "a buzz". I need to get my prorities in order and get this thing beat, logically it is the most insane thing to waste money on.

I will be back in 10 days time to update you and hopefully have some more clarity to my thoughts just angry with the weakness at the moment.

A Man who needs to do better than try hard.

1.why is this so hard to beat?? I have beaten many other struggles in my life but this one has me by the preverbials. I’m back shamed, today reason I want to quit is to have more money in my bank account for my child.

Hi tryinghard1234

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2. The lack of control this thing leaves me with is terrifying, the shame of my partner seeing beneath the weave of lies and finding out what I spend all of my money on scares me. I need to focus on what I am going to not do.

3. Controls put in place, clear focus and clarity about why I need to stop. This time is going to be different.

4. This is the one,?this is the time I beat this thing I am single minded and determined. Thinking about how to avoid tripping a lot and how to stop being such a melt with this disease. Dreamt about gambling last night and woke up relived that it was only a dream.

5. Keep telling myself this is the time this is the one. Believing that I am ready to stop and maybe I wasn’t on previous incarnations of this journey.

I haven’t hit rock bottom I’m a little in debt but should be clear in less than a year but the spiral I was going down was getting ever steeper. Last week I had an email from a bookmaker saying that my betting frequency was too high and was I in control, that was the wake up call I needed. Another day gamble free I am doing this for me and my family it has been 23 years enough is enough.

6. Early morning post from me here working hard on keeping busy and mind off gambling. Got a day off tomorrow on my own would usually be a day of gambling not this time! This thing is done! I am feeling great and mentally motivated for this challenge have a great day everyone.

7. Another day on still feeling very strong about this time I made myself a promise that this time was the one. Still considering which sports I watch for the sport and which are inextricably linked in my mind as gambling triggers but we shall find out. No gambling for me today

Hello mate,

Sorry to read your ongoing struggle.

Register with gamstop immediately, it self excludes you from near enough every online bookmaker/casino for 5 years. I was in a lot deeper than you, but now cannot gamble online even if I wanted to. I have been trying to quit for many years, and this is the only thing that has ever worked.I haven't gambled for months. Please sign up asap.

8. Thanks for the advise mutton will look into that am actually banned or on a break from about 20 gambling sites as I have self excluded over time when I have lost a lot. I was not expecting anyone to post on here I have been a dramatic failure every time I have attempted this so don’t feel people should waste their time till I have proved I am going to do this. My birthday today the present I am giving myself is a better future with my family.

Just a quick update have installed Gamstop for 5 years thanks mutton took no time