Great news, you won't regret it.
9. Nothing to report day 9 feeling strong. Have been working out finances and luckily I am in the position to be debt free in 9 months which is a good position and I know I am lucky some are in far worse positions than myself. As good as this is to know also being aware how much this illness has set me back and how much money I could have in the bank had I never started is quite annoying. Oh well you can’t change the past you can only do better going forward, for my family and myself I will not gamble today.
Exactly guilt shame and remorse leads us down to escapism and more gambling, we cannot change what we've done but we can just for today not gamble and change our future for ourselves and our loved ones, with gambling and addiction in general theres only one winner and its NOT US! Keep strong.
10. Last night my dreams were absolutely packed full of me gambling crazy the forms this addiction takes. Anyway has not lessened my resolve another day done hope everyone else is doing well and feeling strong.
11. Just checking in all good on the gf front. Just taking it one day at a time 23 years of triggers/ learned behaviours to overcome it is going to be a long road out of this one. I have spent 23 years near to the mark with my finances be it when i was 14 and could not afford 50p until the last few years where I could gamble thousands in a day why does part of my brain still look fondly on those memories and associate it with fun???? Crazy how rose tinted the memory spectacles are, anyway another day gamble free
12. Another day off the list been thinking on this as it is the rest of my life I am going to keep the number of days till I pass my previous best which is 105 and then I’ll be just posting thoughts on here after and hopefully at some point giving advise ( that seems a long way away). Another day gf.
13. Unlucky for some but not for me it is another day gamble free. Day off work today would previously have been spent gambling most of the day from 11am when the first greyhound race started till 6pm when my family returned to the home, no such thing today went out played a bit of golf and did a few chores around the house.
14. Another day gf 2 weeks not out. Not much to report haven’t done much thinking about gambling and the urges have not been that strong last couple of days. I am aware they could strike at any time and just be ready for them.
15. Another day gf. Nothing to report going strong.
16. checking in, swimming with the famiy today and then watching the pga champ golf. Wierd watching without some form of bet on it but ths is the new start and will figure out if I like to watch golf or I liked to bet on golf.
17 not out, another one ticked off. Watched the golf yesterday did not bet was not even close to having a bet. My mind is so programmed to think about what “price” something is that those thoughts kept popping up but I put them away. Hopefully in time I will be able to watch sport for the competition and not just as medium for betting, I do enjoy sport it is just the association I need to sever and this will take time of which I have plenty.
18 not out. Have hurt my back so all focus is on that and feeling sorry for myself at the moment no thoughts of breaking.
19no. Been watching the golf last couple of days just for the enjoyment of it and have been enjoying, one small difference I have noticed is that as the golf is in America so finishes late. The last couple of nights when I feel tired I go to sleep previously I would have to watch every shot to see what difference it made on the odds on my selection. Anyway small victories 19 days down
20 not out. Keep on keeping on, feeling a bit empty today going to be a long road out of this and know I am going to have days where I miss the routine and thrill of gambling. Not going to break but just having one of those days anyway back to the grind.
Well done tryinghard. I'm on day 1 again. I lost a few grand betting on the pga golf among other events at the weekend. You are definitely making progress. I'm here for the fight now too day after day. I'll be 20 days behind you so lets do this.
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