34 no, another day down not much to report. Busy at work no thoughts of gambling all good here
35 no. Another day gamble free, found out that my brother who was a gambler is quitting at the same time as me and is approx at the same time in his journey. This should serve as a good source of motivation as long as he keeps it up, obviously it will do the opposite if he fails but hopefully him knowing I am giving up and vice versa should be good for both of us.
36 no, not much to report another day gamble free lot less thoughts about gambling, know this is a long road and the monster lurks round every corner but I am feeling very happy with my progress so far. Today I will not gamble!
37 no. My attitude to reading other people’s diaries has changed this time. I previously read other people’s diaries with an expectation that everyone would at some point fail trying to beat this thing and would almost skip to the point where the posts stopped and invariably it would turn out that others like I myself have done on here would have gone back to gambling. This time I am trying to read people who are established and have gone long stretches as inspiration as to what can be achieved and am saddened when someone who seems set falls back in. I have invested more time reading and an defiantly less ambivalent to the journeys that others are taking, think previously my attitude was linked to the fact I knew I wasn’t going to quit for good and so I would expect others to fail to empower me to do the same? I don’t know this has turned into a ramble, another day gamble free thanks for reading.
38 no, had the most vivid dream last night that I had found some great value and the was going to put a bet on it and then in my dream I convinced myself not to due to the promises I had made. Don’t know what is going on in my head it is pretty jumbled but even in my dreams now I’m getting some control. Another day gamble free.
39 no
The big 40, keeping on keeping on. Not really been tempted to gamble obviously have the thought process start in my head wonder what price that is? but that is trained behaviour and will go with the passing of time. Been spending my extra time playing with my daughter and generally trying to be a better human.
41 no. Trying to be a better husband, a better father and a better person
42 no, another day gone by filling up my day off with anything but gambling. Even while sober from this thing it is "what can I fill my time with to stop the time being there?" answer today was paperwrok sorting. Have never done this before, never had the time would have been on the pc I am on now trying to pick a dog that had a fast sectional or a horse that looked good in the weights like I had a chance!. Anyway that part of my life is done another day gamble free.
43 no thoughts of gambling fading fast saw the picks for the Ryder cup today looking forward to the event haven’t even looked upon it as a betting opportunity, another day done roll on 50!
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Really don't know much about this area but if you can lay a lot down and potentially lose it all (which I think you can in stock trading) then I guess the same rules apply? Feeding the same sort of buzz? We would never win because we cannot control? Same principles?
It must generate the same sort of addiction surely. Surely it's like saying "I drink at casinos so I'll go down the racetrack"
The ability not to be able to stop/quit surely makes most gamblers stink at playing the stock market.
44 no, thanks for the post sm you are probably right was just posing a general question to those who might have answers. Feeling very blah today have realised years of being frugal to accumulate betting money has left me with a real unhealthy relationship with money. I resent paying for things as my subconscious is telling me that’s too much don’t buy it, while I’m the same breath telling me to bet hundreds of pounds at a time to get a buzz. I have always been quite clever about how I go about spending with friends and family and have generally never been seen as tight but I am and just feeling a bit c**P about it all today.
45 no. Today I will not gamble
46 no, Mr gamble popped into my head yesterday and to be honest it was a bit of a surprise to me. I think I have pretty much got my head around the fact that there is no way in which I can be the person I want to be and gamble, but yesterday that old niggling thought surfaced “what about if you have a controlled bet somewhere at the races?”/ “you can’t gamble online as you are banned from everywhere so it can’t get out of control”. Anyway those thoughts were put to bed but it unnerving that I am trying to sabotage myself. Another day done today I will not gamble, I am trying to be a better father a better husband and a better person.
47 no, another day is the books today I will not gamble I am trying to be a better husband, father and person.
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