82 no, another day without gambling in my life.
83 no. Another day gamble free couple of easy days no real urges just wary that at any moment or for any reason I will have the strongest urge to gamble. Anyway concentrating on paying off debts and spending my money on my family.
84 days. For me that is a lot, I have been gambling for 23 years in that time I have had one longer period of abstinence that lasted 105 days before I got married and needed to pay for things. I am looking at the days now and saying if I break when is the next time I will make it to this amount of days?? I have done plenty of 10-20 day stretches long enough for the anger to subside and have jumped back in, this needs to be the one second time in about 8,500 days to be near 100 without gambling.
85 days. Another day gamble free nothing much going on the grind continues work, family, sleep and repeat. Have often thought is was my life all the time and had no time off I would never have had time for gambling and would need to constantly be not thinking about it anyway on with the day hope everyone else is gamble free
86 no. Been thinking about how big the gambling industry is and how many people in the Uk it has in its grips, there are no stats for this no one is going to admit they have a problem with it and anyone asks its “yeah breaking even”. My shock is how few people there are on here trying to get better, with how many people are invariably hooked I would have thought this place would be packed out with people trying to get their lives back on track. Anyway just a musing for today another day gamble free.
87 no, another day done read a very inspirational post/diary in success stories about a gambler who had quit and stayed away for 25 years he spoke of helping others along the road and not being selfish, although so far my road has been quite insular and I have been concentrating on myself I am hoping in time I will have something benificial to say to those starting out, that is the hope anyway. I have a plan in my head that I am going to wipe the slate clean I have a date this will be done by at that point I will tell my wife that I have a problem but it is not financially a burden to us but it could be and will go to my local GA (100 miles away) once a week and hopefully this will help me with this insular journey. I know people will read this and think secrecy leads to gambling but I just can’t break apart my family when I can and will fix myself. Today I will not gamble
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93 no, nothing really to report plodding on paying off debt slowly but surely another day done.
95 no. Away on a short break with the family so that is all consuming at the moment watching some sport when I get time but not as focussed on this trying to spend as much time with the little one as possible. Reading some other diaries really brings home how close I am to losing it all along with many others on here. TH
97 no. Back from break feeling anything but joyful about reaching 100 days. Feel unmotivated about recovery my progress (as it is), and generally a bit c**P about being in this situation not being able to gamble in moderation like normal people and just generally losing the anger and passion I started this journey with. Need to kick myself in the backside get out of this funk and stop moping. Have a good gamble free day everyone.
Dear tryinghard1234,
it is common to feel that keeping the focus on recovery is more challenging when the feelings of anger and shame subside after the last gambling. This is a dangerous time however, because losing focus and motivation can easily result in a relapse.
For a successful recovery it is crucial to create a lifestyle change. One that is away from the gambling lifetyle and away from any possible triggers. Do you know what your triggers are? Is it boredom? Is it money in your pocket? Is it stress? It is worth reflecting on this because the more you understand about your triggers the more you will be able to put things into place to avoid them or to find other ways to cope with them without having to give in to gambling.
Give us a call on the Helpline 0808 8020 133 or the Netline to talk these things through and mabe to get a bit of a motivation boost. The Chatroom is also a good way to help you regain focus by speaking to others in a similar situation. There is a Chatroom every day at 1PM and 8PM.
Keep up the good work tryinghard1234, you are not far off your 100 day milestone, and it is all worth it in the end. Just read your own diary as well to rmind yourself why you started this journey.
Wishing you all the very best,
Eva
Forum Admin
99 no. Another day done feeling a little bit more postotive thanks for the reply admin. Just focusing on my daughter and trying to beat this for her. Today I will not gamble
100 no, Should be feeling elated at this milestone but feel tired. Has been a real struggle to get here and the last few days have been plagued with thoughts of gambling. In more positive news my finances are in better shape from not gambling for 100 days and I am spending more time with my family, being a better husband and father. I have not broken and have kept going during the hard times. Here is to another day gamble free.
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