Back Again

Day 6

My urges are getting stronger by the minute but the good news is I got no where to gamble as am self excluded from everywhere.

Also bit concern about my pay which hits my account tomorrow. I am trying to distract myself but nothing is working so far.

Also it is amazing how your mind comes up with ideas how to gamble.

But when I get paid, that's my weakest point my mind goes blank. My blocks are in place but am certen I will end up going somewhere were am not excluded from even at the moment I have an adrenalin rush to go and gamble even tow I have no money but tomorrow I will be much worse. Am thinking of my last lost but its not having much effect.

At this moment am like a J****E who wants a fix.

Has anyone felt like this or has anyone got any advice.

Imran

Fella your post was a true reflection of any of the twenty years if my gambling life.

It took the potential loss of my house, one day 24 hrs from repossession. To make me seek help.

Without doubt this addiction is progressive.

The losses get worse as the stakes get raised.

Funny today looking back toward the end I actually chased losses. I wanted to lose.

Get it over with.

Return to survival mode, something we become master's at.

Ask yourself this question

If I have a punt tomorrow to celebrate payday what will the outcome be??

At best a short term loan from the bookies, which will burn a hole in your pocket and you will punt that and some

So the result will be misery.

Robbie box recently wrote on his thread.

Gambling is a waste of time.

He for me was spot on.

Why not actually enjoy your payday.

That money could be used to enjoy yourself.

Gambling ceased to become enjoyable did it not??

I know that's why I came.

Keep making the right choice.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Day 8

Came close to buying a lottery ticket yesterday but didn't and ended up keeping my self busy to avoid a bet.

Now I am in bed unable to sleep and thinking of gambling. Also weekend football is on which is my weakness but I will wake up late and stay home that way I can't go out and look for a place to bet.

Keep pushing on, Imran. You're doing well. A day at a time. Stay committed. Soon enough, you'll just lose interest in gambling and those urges will die down.

Well done Imran! Keep it going.

Urges will pass, but money that goes to the bookies will always be lost........

well done Imran, im 36 and ive stopped gambling for 64days today im doing well, I spent a fortune gambling spending £500 of my wages a month as soon as I got paid I wanted to gamble. as soon as I finished work I wanted to gamble. thankfully ive stopped now.

Hey imran, welcome back and well done on all of the self exclusion steps you have made.

I also think i remember your last diary, i was using a different name "lukeyt".

Anyways well done and keep up the good work. It will get better.