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Welcome back Jess,

Suzanne xx

thank you. im just in work at the moment and out of the blue from nowhere i have had this incredible urge to gamble. i really felt like saying im going on my lunch and going to the arcade...but as 2 weeks ago it would have turned into an action now instead i have logged on to here to say this. just for today i will think about the consquences just for today i will not gamble if i wouldnt have had this to logon to and write out ny frustration right now i think i may have just walked out and gone there....if have taken that 5 mins out to do this and feel clear again....thank god

one day at a time Jess, as you say- Just for today.

Keep strong

Stu

Jess2910, them 'urges' are the reason so many people fail, we all have them, I always have every time I've 'felt' today is the day....and every time was a failure....there are millions of people playing the lottery with the exact same feelings, a hope of winning....it destroys our good nature when we lose! "Someone's got to win' is the best one I hear, for the few winners, there are millions of losers, all destroyed by that hope of winning, I'm glad I'm not part of that 'club' any more, my Tuesday's Wednesday's, Friday's and Saturdays evenings are so much more restful now, and I get to save all the money I used to lose! The urges used to pull me literally into a bookies door, or through the casino entrance...ignore the urges, laugh at them, they truely are 'voices in your head' trying to destroy you!!!!

thank you both for your comments and you are right they do need to be laughed at thank you for that makes perfect sense i made it threw yesterday an i will make it through today

feeling good today. managing to fight of that urge on friday has really had me thinking about this recovery process and that this is a lifetimes worth. i have never really had an urge like that before or maybe i have but i have always acted on it so it has nrver felt as intense as it did then. im not going to lie im really proud of myself. instead of acting on impulse i actually stopped and considered not only myself and how it would affect me and my recovery but also my family. gambling has made me an incredibly selfish and decietful person and it has been a long time since i thought of consequences and other so for me it maybe considered a small achievement to me it was huge. just got for today i will live my life in a productive way. just for today...i wont gamble!

I'm currently in our city centre, sitting in my car whilst the wife's shopping with nearly £400 in cash in my pocket outside a bookies, the voices and gut are talking to me & guts are churning!!! Fight the urge....it's hard...,I'm actually having to talk to myself and laugh, I am not letting the last 65 days turn into a zero, no way, I will not let myself or anyone down....wow! That feels better!!!!!

thank you!!! in a wierd way it helps knowing im not the onky one who has these messed up thoughts! good for you stay strong i certainly intent to! 🙂

3 weeks tomorrow since my lest bet! feeling good. went to my meeting monday got one tomorrow and what a relief to be able to be honest with other people knowing they arent judging just empathising and supporting makes a real difference!

3 weeks today! went to my meeting tonight you know i fwel like i have bwen going forever the people are fab they really inspire me. im feeling good today. just for today...

Well done Jess....keep it up, be strong and focused...logging in & keeping watch of you!

Still going feeling good about the not gaming but starting to look at my behaviours as a person and the realisation that I am a selfish person and making small changes to try and improve myself is difficult noone likes to look at themselves and criticise themselves and look at some of there flaws but I think it's important to and its something I have to so if I am to improve my life

Well done Jess you're doing fantastic, stay strong x

Well done Jess, your mindset is different at this time.

Keep strong and stay focused.

Suzanne xxx