I think self Critisism is part of the process of changing oneself, in order to improve, you have to find fault, if you can't find fault, how can you improve it? I always say whoever says they've never made a mistake has never made anything, the same goes for your personality, you've got to live and have experiences to realize the good & bad in yourself....so change has to be made based on your own personnel experience and make it possitive based on your feelings!!!
I'm very self.critical but then I relax and forget how bad it was and stop doing all the things I did when I didn't gamble..not this time this time I'm doing it...
31 days gamble free. 31 days closer to feeling like me again and 31 days toward the rest of my life!
I'm feeling strong today not just about my gambling but about other aspects of my life. I've tried to stop before and if I'm honest I thought that gambling was what I needed to stop when in fact it is just the by product ...the end result of my character or personality traits and if I actually want to improve I have to be willing to improve as a person and not be so closed off to think that gambling is it. Deanyboy your last post really is true and I have taken a lot from it.
I'm using this site as and when I need it to vent or just write thoughts i suppse but I am getting a huge deal of support from my meetings from the people ...these people who are ordinary every day people who are going through similar things to myself and all of us and who want to help and support eachother .
Rambled on a bit now but the long and short of it is I'm still gamble free and I'm willing to take my faults and change them to improve mime and my family's life for the better.
P.s. Suzanne I'm so proud of you!
Hi Jess and I am proud of you, 31 days in to your new life is lovely to read.
You posted to me on my first day on here, what a journey we are having.lol.
Keep strong and keep winning your life back.
Suzanne xxx
Having a bit of a wobbly day today...think it's just because today is a money day and a Thursday was always my major gambling day even though I did it most other days aswell always had plenty if funds on a Thursday. I have messaged someone from ga and they are going to keep messaging me through the day just to keep me on track. I don't think I'm going to gamble but the urges are defo there today! And I'm on here rambling again but better to be on here then a casino! I keep hearing people talking about the honeymoon period where its just elation that keeps you going the 1st few weeks I think mine has come to an end and now I feel a little lost. It took up such a huge part of my life and now I'm trying to fill that void. I've been working a lot recently and visiting friends a lot and of course spending time with the kids and nick but really not as much as I should be. I am still not feeling particularly patient at the minute and snapping over the slightest things with the kids so I'm trying to reign that in a bit. But I am going to visit family in the lakes tomorrow for the weekend alone which should give me some quiet time to evaluate my life away from everyone. Anyway got my meeting tonight which I'm actually looking forward to someone said in their list of life priorities ga was number 1 as without it there would be no family there would be no friends and there would be no house etc and that made perfect sense to me.
6 weeks today! Feeling ok at the min had a few ups and downs but been keeping myself very busy and making my 2 meetings a week which is all helping.
54 days! I'm on track and focused and my life is on the right track when it cokes to gambling. Had a tough week this week and not once has gambling been at the for front ! Thank Christ! I wasn't sure how I would handle unexpected bad news or if it would drive me back to my 'best mate' but after this week I'm proud to say I'm still on track !
54 days Jess, proud of you girl,
Keep going
Suzanne xxx
9 weeks today. I feel like I have had an absolute nightmare week this week with regards to gambling it has been on my mind a lot! To the point it is drivimg me mad. I keep hearing myself trying to justify having 1 bet. I know I can not I know I will not but this week has been the 1st week were I have 1. Thought so much about it and 2. Really wanted to. I read the ga books I text people I come on here and I am surrounding myself with people I love to her Mr through this rough patch. I know I will get through it as I need to not only that i want to. I know personally without the gambling it's been a rough few weeks for me but I know that no more harm can come to me If I don't place a bet but disaster will If I do!
80 days today feeling positive.
Well done Jess.
Suzanne xxx
Stay strong Jess. you are doing brill
Mary x
Thank you both. I do come on here regularly and read other people's post I don't tend to comment much but I take something from many people's writing so I thank each and everyone for that! It's 92 days for ne so far and it feels bloody fantastic !
100 days gamble free. I'm feeling pretty good to be honest. Feel like my life is starting to slowly get it's self back on track.
Congratulations on your 100 days Jess, you are doing great x
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