Day 43
Urges to gamble are becoming less it was the first friday since ive been in recovery I didnt have an urge to gamble which is pay payday. I have finnally got a nice new phone in the black friday deals which I would of never got if I was gambling .ive decorated a lot of my house and even went my mums today to decorate more to keep me busy but none the less its working .no urges to gamble friday loads on Saturday big day for gambling in England I really struggled and had to do activities with the kids and family just shows you after be in guard and with the blocks in place and people in my life I managed to overcome then and do another weekend g f .I would be a week away from 90 days without my slip but im really happy be on 42 days again and will carry on to get to 90 days just want to add my mrs as been a rock to me and as really supported me I love her to bits for it heres to another week g f and hopefully many more jft
Day 52
Just got back from my local GA meeting we had a open meeting and there was some long abstinence it was great to hear some of the stories really make s you stronger looking forward to carrying on in my recovery jft
Good to see you there tommy this time next year that will be you if you keep pushing forward
Day 74
Hiya diary
If I'm honest with my self I have been lazy with this diary and not updated like I should be doing which I'm going to try and do more in the new year.
I have not had a bet for 74 days now and my life is so much more manageable. Urges are not as strong and there's a lot of blocks in place . My thinking is a lot more chilled and my anger as disappeared. I no I can not be complacent and need to stick to going to meeting s and working the g a programme .
On a positive not I passed my driving test on the 22 nd and I would of never done it while gambling so it's a proud moment for my self
I'll leave it there for today jft I will not gamble
Day 80
Well it's 2018 and a new year and I'm on 80 days with out a bet and all I can say is I have changed my life around my ways of thinking are changing and my mind is a lot clearer .I'm learning to not get worked up with life problems and use gambling to get away from them .you need to hit them head on and come up with reasonable solutions .a lot of obstacles come up in everyday life and you after learn how to deal with them .
Me and my Mrs are getting on tonnes better so my gambling had a lot to do with our argument s and me being angry all the time .I look back to when we had a doo with a family on our estate I was in the middle of my addiction and made a silly decision the things as died down and seems to be fully over if I was the way I am now I would of had time to think and gone about it differently and more thought would of gone in to the situation.
The urges to gamble are few and far between and this is when my complacency normally comes into play and I think because doing so well I'll just have a small bet and I will be ok and I don't need to g a anymore can do this on my own but truth is I will always need g a to stay away from that first bet then the 2 Nd and 3 rd won't come along .
I'll just some up the last few months and my life was in a mess I was gambling 24/7 using any spare money and not spare money to bet on anything and everything ignoring my kids and family and ruining my life these last few months I have turned it round be hard work no gambling and changing the way my brain works I feel in a good place and want to stay here and know I need to attend g a as well as not be complacent here's to a gamble free 2018 jft
Day 87
Just got back from an amazing g a meeting with some quality people over 20 people and some great therapy's in 3 days I have my 90 days with out a bet many changes have been made and many more to come bring on a gamble free 2018 jft
Top meeting tonight Tom great to see you grow and become a key member of the group keep it up mate I’ll see if I can dig out a pen for you for next week
Day 92
Don't no if I have mentioned in my diary but got on the road last sat what a great feeling being able drive my family round and go visiting friends and family ect with out getting on buses or taxis all from money what would of been gambled .it's been 92 days since my last bet I after admit my life as changed so much for the better my family life and normal life .I have started doing every day things money as started having a value I have actually started saving money and putting money away for my children .I have got into a bit of debt in Jan because I owed so much out from Xmas but it's normal debt not because I have lost so much money on gambling because of paying bills treating my family and getting a car I now know I after work hard and do overtime when nessessary . Any way I'll leave it there oh there's one more thing I went for a pint with my mate well I drove and went into town he still gambling I did have the odd urge and as much as he's a life long mate I need to not put myself in a situation like that and remember my situation jft I will not gamble
Day 103
Went to another meeting tonight in Bury normally go to Oldham but thought never tried different g a meeting and so glad I did was amazing really helped me .urges a far apart over 100 days in but my troubles are not being able to hack everything going so well and life becoming normal I'm sure I will get there but that self destruct button scares me so much I'm going to do everything in my power not to press it since stopping I have passed my driving test stopped rowing with the Mrs spent 100 percent more time with my children and are living a good life I need to not be complacent and carry on just for today I will not gamble
Day 128
Wow not put as much effort in as I should be doing on here but 128 days gf is a massive achievement for myself and im hoping to do many more JFT
Not been on for 35 days had a bet in between not coming on carried on for two weeks only very small amounts but not the point felt awfull got nothing out of it .just felt like how I did when I was gambling last stuck at g a and luckily not gone back at it and been truthfully in everything and back to a week without a bet absolutely over the moon and getting back on track time .aswell I've got a new job at the airport and can't wait to start not starting for 3 week so keeping busy and getting everything ready for it leave it there for today going try do a bit more than I have on here to help my recovery JFT
Hiya everybody back on day 20 had a tough few weeks and had a bet well a few to be truthfull but realised its not for me and will not let my addiction beat me have thrown my self back in the deep end and have put as many blocks in place I love my g a group and our whatsapp group and its massive support for me .im taking it one day at a time now and will try keep this updated more often JFT
Hi Tommy
I hope that you return to the forum. You were a great help to me in my early days on here. I hope you make it through and beat this thing.
A new start from me I have been going to g a for over 12 months doing 3/4 months and relapsing I am very determined to go again I don't want this addiction to beat me it's so hard but I have a great family great job and a good future and if I gamble I will ruin all that .I keep becoming complacent when things are going so well I have a self destruct button and always seem to press it I am going to try change a couple of things and try few different ways my last bet was Sunday so here goes jft
Hello everybody been coming g a since sept 2017 last few months really struggled but back again and giving it my all the give once and for all there will be many upsets along the way and many smiles here we go again thanks for all who supported me on here along the way
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