Valentines day, didn't send any cards, feels good. Blew10 quid on roulette feels less good but didn't lose control. I know what set me off though, [ row ] Will try harder tommorow.
cr** night 3hrs sleep, wife snoring, arguing. 7.30am best mate rings she needs littlun taking to school, today will be ok now.
Hi bluerick ,
was just checking how your getting on in your bid to give up gambling hope your staying strong! gd luck
Yeah thanks, I think the worst is over, I didn't gamble today. I still roll the odd fiver in a machine but that is a level and time period i can handle. The days of dropping 50 or a 100 quid in a day are gone because I know I could never dare chase a loss that big. The biggest risk now would be if had a big win from say 5 or 10 quid to say 50 quid then i might start getting cocky again.
I did bet yesterday and the day before making about 12 quid from 5 in a couple of spins in both cases. I'm too chicken to push my luck any further. I think gradually betting at such a low level will eventually become so boring it'll die a natural death.
We'll see how it goes , thanks for enquiring.
Didn't gamble yesterday lost maybe 13 quid the previous 2 days. Lost 7 today hardly a disaster just exasperating that i can't leave the roulette alone. It's interesting watching others, they're all f...cked really, you can tell from their rosy faces , occasional outbursts and evasive eyes. I WILL NOT end up like them. Self exclusion seems unavoidable.
On a positive note, it is only electronic roulette i have a problem with and only at this one bookies [ i'm self excluded from everywhere else]. confession over.
You setting yourself for a major crash. Gambling is an addiction. You either want to continue gambling or stop. You cannot have it both ways.
You are tring to assure us that you have everything under control ? Who you kidding ?
Take a deep look inside. I hope you find the real answers and are able to beat this disease. Goodluck
I'm not judging it is just that i feel a fraud on here sometimes, my monetary losses are trivial but i am addicted. surely a small release is better than a major blowout. i could talk to you about my other addictions but my posts would be removed.
Believe me over the last 11 yrs my position is at last improving, in fact my gambling was to finance other more expensive destructive behaviours and has made me confront my other life long issues. cheers. rich
Keep on fighting. All the best.
EDITED POST
Monday, haven't gambled over weekend ( unless you count the lottery, which i don't ). Having one local bookie available to me is like the alcoholic with the unopened bottle of bourbon in the cabinet, it is there for you any time you want. Watched Leaving Las Vegas with Nicolas Cage and Elizabeth Shue last night, a film that really strikes a cord with me. We are all more fragile than we realize. Emotional pain is the reason for all addictions really, I'm starting to recognize when I'm vulnerable now.
Thursday, feeling strong hav arranged to spend day at pool/sauna again like yesterday,
Picked up a self exclusion form from the only bookie i have reinstated at [ back on the 21 Jan ] . The usual stalling 'come back tommorow' 'can't find them' 'take the form away and bring it back in 24 hrs' 'we need an up to date photo' . They had a 6 month old photo in front of them on my old form. All i really wanted to do was complete the form put the old photo on and P--s off, no, far to simple, they'd rather let me leave without any record of me self excluding today. I can't help thinking the relief manager didn't want to be the one signing the form, do they get a demerit badge for taking another cash cow CG out of circulation? I'm getting cynical now.
Must take that self exclusion form in.
Haven't gambled today ,my new addiction seems to be the local pool/ sports club, no bad thing really. The adrenalin buzz of a really good swim steam sauna is nearly as good as a round of roulette. The sunny weather is definitely helping too. The conversation and socialising is better quality as well. The odd few words exchanged in the bookies are always brief and distracted and half the people in there are clearly hooked . I think I might take up weights again if my back holds out.
We are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year. You can also contact us for free on 0808 80 20 133. If you would like to find out more about the service before you start, including information on confidentiality, please click below. Call recordings and chat transcripts are saved for 28 days for quality assurance.
