Changing for the better

Day 16

Gamble free and happy!

Everything in my life has improved in the last 2 weeks or so. And all because of not gambling.

Work has improved, golf has improved, finances have improved (as in I still have some money left!) and most importantly family life has improved.

Why change it???

Have a good gamble free day all.

M

Hi M

Thanks for posting on my diary.

I bumping you up now, hope you are ok.

Take care mate, ands

3 weeks today!

Had to walk past one of my old haunts last night on the way to pick up a curry. Not tempted at all. Didn't even look!!

Happy happy happy!

Have a good day all

M

Hi M

Thanks for dropping in on me and thank you too for the emails, its kind of you to take the time!

Anyway congrats 3 weeks, great stuff, one day at a time thats all we can do......

all the best mate, catch you soon i hope! ands

Hi mrt

thanks for your post on my diary, it is very exciting stuff!

Glad you are back in the recovery saddle. I identify with you, because like me you seem to have trouble with these occasional slips and maintaining the constant abstinence. I think it is just a learning process though, and I notice we are both getting better as time passes.

We know we can do this!

Take care,

f x

Day 25 I believe.

No gambling issues. Not even any urges.

Looking forward to an afternoons golf after work. Assuming the forecast is right and the thunder storms hold off until tonight!

Long term target is to abstain completely, however still need short term targets to help focus the mind. So the first target is one complete pay cycle gamble free. 17 days to go to hit target 1.

Have a good weekend all.

Take care.

M

gambling is just a drug.

the worst thing about gambling is that there is a machine in the bookies called the dreaded

FOBTs, this FOBTs is really the C*****e of gambling.

keep away from the FOBTs. its dreadful

Day 22 I think.

Not that it matters too much. I didn't gamble yerterday and I won't gamble today or tomorrow. That's what really matters.

Had a few tests of my resolve over the last few days. Pressures from work, relatives who are very unwell, but I haven't and will not give in.

Take care all

M

4 weeks today.

I will not gamble today.

Still in a good place despite all that's going on around.

Not much else to add.

Have a good day all

M

Great work Mr T, hope you are ok!

Drop us an email when you want mate, always nice to hear from you.

Take care, ands

Hi Mr T

My turn to bump you up, hope you are well!

Post soon,take care. ands

So here we are then, approaching the 1st anniversary of my diary, and any progress made during the last 12 months has always been short lived.

Currently not gambling and haven't for a few days now. Want to break this cycle of pain, winning, elation, more pain, realisation, pain, forgetting, winning...... and so on. Oh, and musn't forget guilt! Think most of you know the score there. How though, I don't know.

Limiting cash? Can't, need it for work when entertaining customers. Self exclusion? Difficult as could be anywhere. Don't gamble online so that isn't a problem. Seems like I'm looking for excuses to not put blocks in place, to leave the door ajar. It's not the case, just the reality of my situation.

Will see what happens over the coming days, but for now, one day at a time.

Take care all

M

you have made the best decision, just to admit what you have is very brave I did not admit it until I had been writing in my diary for about a month. my addiction is lottery and I had a considerable win and over 4 years have lost it all by keep buying tickets, so you see I know how you feel. be positive and when you are down come and write on your diary it helps to know you have friends who are all doing the same thing. keep going

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The line has to be drawn at some point. Enough is enough. There are now only 2 possible outcomes.

Take care all

M

No gambling since Thursday, but still feel like cr**.

Upwards only from here.

Take care all

M