It's been almost a year again since I was last here and again I find myself in a completely self induced gambling coma....
I cannot see the wood for the trees anymore and all sense seems to have abandoned my thought processes
Have done oh so well in the last few years to manage my addiction, however since May it has all gone wrong for me again
I can no longer control my actions and I have put my life in a precarious position again and I cannot allow this to destroy everything I have worked so hard for yet again
Gambling is completely pointless and many years ago it was said to me that only the needy or the greedy gamble... I am beginning to understand this and since without gambling I am not needy, there can only be one explanation for me, the one of greed
I can't say that it is for entertainment anymore, it only brings me trouble and heartache and even if I were to ever win which has become rare on any occasion, it certainly doesn't bring me any happiness
My work, bank balance and my health are all now suffering as a result of this pointless cycle and something clearly has to give
I know in my mind that the gambling has to go and go for good
I have been here before in a worse state, so know what I must do - I just have to find the strength and courage to do what is right
So here goes, back to where it started for me so long ago
Tomorrow brings a new dawn... lets hope it brings about a new and a better life
Weldy
hi,sorry to hear about your plight but you know you can do it take 1 day at a time and you will get stronger I am new on here today is my 4th week since i last bet and life is beginning to look better again. Take care and be strong.x
It's my first morning and whilst feeling a little sore from the past months I am determined to give this my best shot
Will concentrate on what is important and get on and do the things that I need to do
Not thinking about betting, that is a pastime I want to forget, so day 1 for me begins with a clean slate and a positive look forward to better things to come
Difficult day, but have managed to get through it without gambling. That is a positive in itself.
Well done for getting through today keep positive and remember how today has given you hope and take that into tomorrow good luck x
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