Hi
I am not going to keep any false promises but I am taking steps to make a recovery which is humble and truthful.
The position I am in? I steal food from my flatmates. I am so low its horrible. Every single penny crosses that counter and as much pain as I emit from my body language it still goes on mercilessly from those bookies.
Anyway I have started to make changes. I have asked my friend to take control of all my finances for the forseeable future and that was hard to do. He is going to change all my passwords, transfer all money into his ISA where I cannot get to it under any circumstance.
For treatement I am undergoing serious sexual assault counselling and I feel I need gambling counselling too to help. My GP has been approached and I have been granted time off from my MA to get help.
I intend to find a 12 step meeting and would be willing to go to Manchester to find one (I am in Sheffield) and make the commitment to attend every week.
I will keep a diary on here every day and try my best to be brutually honest about what I have done and my day. If it helps out someone then great.
Day 1) As above
Jamie
Hi Jamie, good to see you making the leap 🙂
Fantastic work telling your friend & putting that into place but I would question why he needs to put the money in his ISA if he has control of your finances? I understand you not wishing to have access to it but this gives you no recourse if he turns against you...If you have maxed out your limit, consider a Passbook savings account or Premium bonds!
I'm glad to see day@atime has pointed you in the right direction & hopefully these will give you what you need rather than the poor experience you have already had!
Equally, I know you were concerned about the validity of this site & you had one unusual response on your opening thread but we are all here for each other & sometimes a little cyber support goes a long way!
I know it's gonna be hard but try & be kind to you - ODAAT
Thank you for the kind feedback. I didnt have any issue with the forum or the posters on here it was where the funding for gamcare came from. Maybe the funding can be conversely seen as insurance of some sorts to help people out who are in our situation. I do appreciate all the feedback!
Day 2: Today was a quiet day, I couldnt leave my room or get out of bed but forced myself to do a little physical training then tried to do some work in the library. Concentration was highly disturbed which was expected but I did see someone I knew which helped. Friend has fully agreed to help and although I havent told him I cant pay him yet I intend to the next day or so as I want to break the immediate pressure am under. I have university in a few hours and am considering asking for a few weeks off to set up all professional help and give myself a chance to breathe. I hope the days here on in have a gradient which go upwards. I am bankrupt morally and finacially and have low self esteem. Tomorrows goal is to not have a bet and look at a problem and try to resolve it amicably.
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