Day 1

I’m going to keep a diary and write every day . I’m not really sure how to use this site to keep a diary do I start a new topic every day or do I just reply to myself I don’t really understand it . 

Hi peter

New to this, but I think you just reply to yourself on here. I'm finding keeping a diary here really helpful. Take it one day at a time, and put any blocks in your way that you can. I have also found it really helpful to work out my average daily loss and each day I don't gamble, I keep a track of the money I have saved myself by getting through another day. You can do this! Sending you positive vibes x

@aoxbg6d3ji thank you , I’ve been suffering with this addiction for far too long I’m going to give recovery my all . this addiction is trying to kill me .

Hi peter

Let's check back in tomorrow so I can report day 11 and you can report day 2! You're not far behind me

 We can do this! Stay strong 💪 

@aoxbg6d3ji  sounds good

Day 10 all done, onto day 11

day 2 , went to a ga meeting yesterday that felt great even tho I didn’t want to go so glad I went . 

Hi peter

That's awesome well done. Let's check in on your thread tomorrow for day 12 for me and day 3 for you. This is such a hard addiction to battle. You should be proud of yourself! I have not done any ga meetings, but am embracing the concept of one day at a time from them. Just for today, I will not gamble. 

@aoxbg6d3ji yes this addiction is literally a killer , it destroyed me financially mentally and in every way , one day when I’m out of this haze I’ll write my story on here right now I’m still in a haze and not thinking clearly . if along the way you find anything helps you with your urges let me know , so far no urges but it’s only been 2 days I know the urges will come and I have to be ready for when they come .

Day 12

Getting plenty of urges today. Keep thinking what harm would a twenty quid deposit do? Keep reminding myself that there is no way I would be able to stop at that. Just for today I will not gamble

@aoxbg6d3ji  you know we never stop at just 20 that 20 turns into 100 than 10000 than we max out every account we have that’s what I always done anyways , once I start there is no stopping me even if someone put a gun to my head or the room was on fire I would have kept spinning the machine , I’m very very sick , congrats on your days keep going

Day 3 for me 

Yesterday I read the yellow ga book 4 times and I will keep doing that every day I need go get the gambling obsession out of my head , my mind is still in a haze it’s only been 3 days . Will try to keep busy , will do a ga meeting today either in person or in zoom . 20 years of my gambling I caused severe devastation to my life to my finances and those around me but nothing I can do about the past I have to move on . 

Thank you and I agree, I'm the same. When I really get into it I won't move for hours, ignoring if I am hungry or need the loo. Did you manage to get to day three? 

@aoxbg6d3ji  yes I did , still feeling like absolute c**P but it’s only been 3 days so I have to be hopeful . Few years ago there was a fire at a casino in  Vegas and after the firefighters came in they found people burned to a crisp sitting at the machines this is how sick we are .