Day 3 and counting.....

Hey Phil,

Fantastic to hear that you putting all the pieces back together. I am very happy for you, keep it up and head to better and brighter future! Hopefully catch up on chat some time:)

Take care

Day at a time

Sandra x

Hi Phil,

Great to read your still about and life is moving forward for you, I know the feeling about not coming on here as much as the thoughts of gambling become fewer and you fill your time with other stuff, But as I was reminded last night this is our recovery and we have to keep working at it. You should be on day 111 if I`ve got my maths right a big step forward from the early single figure days. All the best stay safe.

chris

Hi to all old friends and hello new forum members.....

Day 0 I am afraid to say, not gambled any of my own money but have succumb to a free offer in a very small way. Have convinced myself that it is ok and I can not use any of my own money ever again, yes I do believe that but I guess if I stand back and look in I maybe just lying to myself. So why I have I come back on here, well my wife has discovered some of my old habits creeping back in, hiding my phone, constantly looking on my phone, yes I am doing that and it is the same behaviour which I was doing before so although I am not spending any money I am becoming deceiptful, it is unacceptable.

The last 4 months I have made excellent progress, I have given up drinking, taken up a strict exercise regime and tried to make myself a better person, it has worked. But for me personally, my relationship with my wife, although having improved drastically, I have no hope in my mind of a future. Maybe I am being impatient, and that is a big problem with CGs, but in a way I feel my progress has been of little gain, it has but the most important thing to me, has not.

I know I need to look at the positives, and I will do so, please don't be angry with me, that is the great thing about this place, not judgemental because this behaviour is not uncommon, and believe it or not I still want to do the right thing. My wife not talking to me and a lot of hard work undone as a consequence of my secrets and lies. Here's to a brand new start.

take care everyone and I hope you are all keeping well.

Phil

Hey Phil,

Good to see you back. Don't worry about the slip

....it's progress not perfection...

I slipped myself, but only come to terms to realize what i really want from my life., and learned lots from little mad moment...

Keep your diary going and i hope things will change for the better with ur wife.

Day at a time

Take care

Sandra x

Hey Phil

Lovely to hear from you again. You must remember and keep in your mind how well you have done so far. I too slipped and had what I called my "moment of madness" lasting a couple of hours out of 7+ months!! I wasn't disappointed but sad with myself. Thankfully, I got straight back on track and now back onto week 7 again already. Hope you can do the same, I am certain you can. Relationships can be such a difficult thing, especially when addiction is thrown into the mix. I hope you are able to get what you want from it.

Take care and keep in touch.

Lady Feb.x

Hey Phil,

Thank you again for your supportive post and really hope to catch up some time soon on chat.

Day at a time

Take care x

Hi Phil...

How is it going for you?? I hope you at least login in to chats...i don't go there as often as i used to..

Hope all is good and you finding ur life better without gambling in it.

Take care

Sandra x

Hi Phil,

Hope all is good with you. Drop us a line when you can.

Take care

Sandra x

Hey Phil,

Coming by to say hello 🙂

Hope all is good with you, just remembered our funny chats on afternoon sessions last year. Would love to hear from you, never forgotten dear soldier, keep up the good fight!!

All the best

Sandra x