Slept a bit better last few nights but still have moments of great stress. Got invited by two different people to two different events that would have been fun to do but have to miss out due to Thursday's mess up.
living4now wrote:
Slept a bit better last few nights but still have moments of great stress. Got invited by two different people to two different events that would have been fun to do but have to miss out due to Thursday's mess up.
You could plan for the next event? Give the money to your other half to manage?
She does have control of my money now. No spare money now for some time to come though and want to just take one day at a time for now.
Managed fairly well until last week, Cheltenham and all the offers got the better of me. I actually managed to win a reasonable sum of money and was going to withdraw it however the casino sections proved too much of a temptaion and I lost what I had won. Felt terrible as I had been doing so well and fed up with getting somewhere only to relapse again.
Been to the doctor as had been feeling low because of a few problems at work and this also helped push me to gamble. Been prescribed Citalopram but like before just feel so guilty about losing.
Citalopram has calmed me down and I felt a lot better and had been feeling relaxed and not thinking about gambling. Yesterday I foolishly went into a shop and wasted the loose change I had on me and in my desire to win it back I suddenly thought of an opportunity to get more money to gamble with. It was a card that I had forgotten about and I transferred money to it and lost a couple of hundred pounds. Gave my wife that card when I got home so that avenue is closed but still so angry with myself for not closing it earlier. Feel terrible and today the drugs are not helping at all my shame
Up and down, Just cannot stop and feel so low and drugs arent working anymore
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