day one after 25+ years

well this is my 11th day had flu last 2 day so that's helped as have hardly been awake let alone gamble! temptation been strong this evening I could argue its boredom but its not its that bit of my brain trying find an excuse..K9 software has turned out a great bit of support if you can get someone you trust to do the admin password for you,looking back at other attempts to stop I've made I think I've always had a break then thought right i'm ok now..but realized I'm not and never going to be so need help my self by doing everything I can to keep temptation away and make sure blocks in place.also looking what else I can bring into my life...with gambling out need bring some good stuff back

Hi TM

Well done to you on 12 days today of winning

Keep going abstaining and maintaining one day at a time

Suzanne x

day 16 still going gamble free! although been a mistake not to post this week till now,have read forum few times but posting help give that kick and reminder of why I started this diary and not being as involved last few days temptation got worse hence back here posting and try give my willpower a boost.life is better without the constant guilt of a last gamble hanging over me still got guilt for the years I did but need to come to terms with that as if let it get me too down that helps the Gambling Gremlin thats still sat on my shoulder...thanks for everyone on this forum we can have a better life and hope we loose the Gambling gremlins for good

well day 20 has come around quickly so tomorrow will be end of my third week "clean" so to speak and that is how it feels,yep still got guilt and financial problems but at least in the last 3 weeks I have not added to them.Thank your for this forum and the support it provides it has helped me get through these weeks one day at a time and today I will Not gamble 🙂 wish everyone else well and those starting use the advice and blocks on here they help so much

3 weeks done! and it has been on my mind think its because usually whenever I felt good my "treat" would be gambling...so need find new ones.temptation has been bad today last night even had a dream about gambling...feeling very cautious whenever stopped for a while this when it gets me when I start feeling positive think one treat will be ok I can handle it...but I know I cannot so still here posting really want ditch it for good this time

Well done too much, 3 weeks is excellent and you must be feeling really good, keep it up. I stopped again when you stopped but I think I lasted 2 weeks then relapsed so here I'm back again. I really need to stop this time as mentally i suffer too much when I'm gambling.

day 24 and its a good feeling to be on a Saturday morning without guilt from week before,thanks for messages of support and the life without the constant worry and pressure is much nicer...staying vigilant though cannot afford to slip up.wish all well and one day at a time and today we will not gamble

after a positive morning had a bad afternoon...struggled get through felt lonely,down and really anxious when normally would end up giving in and gambling,read through some other diaries and went for a walk then brought myself a massive cake needed something try pick me up not a big problem as gym tomorrow...if not for this forum think would not have got through thank you.still feeling not the best but at least stayed away from making things worse

Hi TM

Well done on your gamble free days.

Stay strong and positive, life is so much better with no gambling in it.

You are doing great, keep going.

Suzanne xx

Too much

Well done for getting through that Saturday I often feel is the hardest day of the week with so much sport going on

But you did it , be proud of yourself

Castle2

day 29! so over 4 weeks and feeling healthier in mind than have since cannot remember,thank you for support messages think weekends are hardest time and gambling promo's seem be everywhere you look.also the reminder stopping gambling does not fix everything but I do know it stops making things worse and gives us a chance of a happier life.going keep this diary going I am terrified of slipping up and having this to come back to helps with resolve.wish everyone happy gamble free days

4weeks 4 days

still holding out been the gym today another thing I had stopped as never had the motivation while worrying about gambling,had a tricky night last night lots of temptation around as usual weekends are the worst but trying put some things in place and make some changes to help with that.when tempted still get back here and read the diaries strengthens resolve so much.wish all well and one day at a time is working for me so far focus on the now rather than worry about the future and regret the past which is what have always done before

6 weeks 1 day free

been a while since posted,still here though reading the forum.but thought I need get back and focused as from past experience when get lax that's when urges creeps up to gamble. Life is better though less urges and managing to focus on so much more stuff..the constant shame and despair have carried feels like such a weight off not adding to it anymore...when tempted just think of that last day when gambled nearly 2 grand from a credit card and then felt like the world ended..do not want those feelings and thoughts ever again..

Hi TM,

Very well done on over 6 weeks of being gamble free.

Keep going staying strong and positive

Suzanne xx

thanks for support Suzanne,weekends are so much more difficult gambling seems be thrown at us everywhere...every tv channel seems to push it especially roulette which is my main weakness