Good morning/ evening girl,
I am a wee bit upset with you....What are you thinking posting while tired and in pain!!!..it's enough to put . Next time so i know you ok 🙂 ( dot i mean )
Well it was lovely for you to volunteer for my church service lol...no singibg darling...but maybe some drumming?? Wow that would be great..
I will think about it...need to make friends with "higher power " first to get permission for my good deed about church 😀
I hope all is good with ya darling and u getting sum well deserved rest. Never forgotten girl, always close by in my thoughts.
12 dishes...can sort something out...can send a package over!!
Look after yourself
S xxxxx
Just poping by and hoping all is well with ya. Believe me girl I feel for ya with pain in your arms cause I'm in the same boat about now. LOL weekend ain't coming soon enough.
Hello Top Lass...
Hope them arms are well and truly mended now and works going well.
You have come along way in these past few months, just keep believing hai and most importantly keep telling any gambling thoughts to ' f**k right off '
Strength and honor to you Carolyn
Arm is feeling so much better and close to 100%. Poor Soul now! Work is busy and insane. Temps plummeted and we're at minus 39 with the wind chill.... colder than a witche's teat! Have passed 30 days with no cigs and no doob. Alcohol is under control and have only had a very few this past month. Wish I could say the same for gambling, though I haven't been as bad as I have in the past. Hi ho, hi ho, of to work..... Later!
Hi Carla,
I'm glad to read you are feeling better. And well done for staying strong with those habits...
I start smoking more( f**s lol ).Xmas tough time for me, stress, short days, lack of money ..and so on.
Wouldn't be the end for my excuses lol...so better stop 🙂
Cold your end!! Brrr...-39...d**n, i remember we used to shut the schools down at -40...happy days for us kids lol
Ok, moving on lol...take care and keep warm and safe
S x
Truly thankful to all who've posted their support to me this past while. Got word from sis that all is ok with her health so that scare is done with. Arms feel really quite good again... a bit of shovelling to do but nothing I can't handle. I know I'd said that I would catch up on everyone's diaries and I'd like to return that support but my spirits have dropped with the temperatures. I don't know why for certain... the Christmas season looming which I hate, the lack of sunlight as the days get shorter and shorter, just my body's biochemistry or other every day events that irritate me more than they should... all of the above? I've long been depressed but can usually fake it around most people and even feel much better when i'm around people I like. The past week or so, I'm just feeling more blah than usual. Please don't feel you need to reply, anybody.... I'll prob just feel even more guilty! Just blah and trying to force myself to write.
Not replying dear Carla......just...((((((( Carla ))))))) ...understand how u feel...you are not alone in this xx
S x
Have disappointed myself. On Thursday, I hooked up with a gal I haven't seen in a while who gave me a "J" which I didn't decline. I thought I would put it away for the holidays. On Friday I attended a little Christmas gathering... enjoyed the socializing, though the wine gave me heartburn. Will I ever get to enjoy my red again or will I have to stick with beer from now on? Saturday... just sat around staring at the walls feeling down. Sunday... felt worse... went to casino and blew $500 , bought a cig off someone there and smoked it... came home and had a beer, then a P**f and then a gargantuan chocolate brownie for dinner. In just a few short hours, I managed to tickle ALL of my vices. I will not go smoke any more cigs so I will just pretend that didn't happen. I did promise myself I would only drink or use doob socially and not use the vices to escape my feelings so I disappointed myself there. I am most distraught about the gambling. May have royally screwed myself... depends on the princess in the basement who is going to her home for Christmas... I will tell her she has to pay her rent before she leaves (on the 15th as she will be gone until the 5th Jan). If that doesn't work, I don't know what i'll do. Wish I could just go back to bed. Why do I do this to myself? Forget that... I know why. The answer isn't pretty.
Hey there girl...
((( C ))) ...sometimes all you need is the best fluffy friend to keep u occupied...any possibility?
S x
Aw, Sandra... melt my heart. I love dogs and golden retrievers are my favourite. I would have one if I didn't have to work and had a better space for it. Anyway... got outside today and got some exercise so am feeling better. Sun was shining, sky was blue and the minus 20 feels almost tropical compared to the minus 40 days we just came through. Am almost back in the saddle....
Hi sweetie,
Hope all is good with ya and you are not snowed in. Take it easy and look after yourself.
P.s.you never know what lovely little fluffy present Santa can bring you this year..you won't have a choice but keep it xx
Sandra x
Thanks but I can't even look after myself, nevermind a dog.
Feelings are very much like a yo-yo lately. I would have thought that by now things would be starting to feel a bit more level for me. No! Am either completely down in the dumps and/or full of resentment about just about everything... family, friends, renters/house, job/colleagues. And if I'm seeing a problem with pretty much everything in my life, that's got to mean that I'm the problem. Sis has been calling like crazy and I'm not answering. Have big resentment about our last couple of spats.... never say what's truly on my mind... only tell her to f-0. I've been so, so good for most (rather all) of the time in the past month... now am starting to fall off the wagon. I just need a beer... which is why I shouldn't have one... AND which is why I will have one. Not giving a ff about much at the mo. Just needed to vent that.
...and you did just that girl...good, keep spitting darling..
It is hard time for everyone, please keep close by, please just hold on. You are not on your own and you are much missed recently. We all unite and do it as a team..
My thoughts are with you..
Have that beer girl, or two...i would have one for you but at b*****d work at the mo!! Lol...
Hate it all too girl...but please just keep going..just for today...believe in urself...
((((((((((((((((((((( Carla ))))))))))))))))))))
S x
Hai Carla
Keep venting and spewing your S***e on here...
Can understand the yo yo feelings, just need to find that way to keep it in mid air....
(((((C))))
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