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Know how important resilience is as makes mega differences to outcomes for young people I work with. Can be such a simple thing as well, just one person in your life that has shown you love and respect and cared about you can make you a survivor.

You are certainly that as you keep returning to the battle no matter what life throws at you.

Lovely to be in a position to make choices as with your job and that you are respected and acknowledged by others.

Thank you for calling by and health and happiness to you.

xxx

Hi Carla... I'd love to go on a course about being more resilient. My whole working life ive done jobs up until the point that I feel I can't cope anymore and then ive jacked them in and then started over in a new job after a period of crisis. Consequently ive never really progressed and remain stuck in low pay high stress jobs.

Glad to read that the warmer weather has finally arrived and you can do the things that you enjoy. Keep focussed on not gambling and am sure that your life will continue to improve. Thanks for your support as always... S.A 🙂

Hey girl 🙂

Cmon then enlighten us 🙂 how did it go and how do you feel? Fingers still crossed for ya

Thank you for your ongoing support as always

S x

Thank you, friends. Had the interview this afternoon.... a gruelling 1.5 hours and I felt like it went very well... BUT... my gut says I won't get the position. I say this because I saw the candidate they interviewed before me leave and I know her. She has a higher position than me right now (a lateral move for her)and she's more qualified (she has her master's degree and I don't), so even though I felt I interviewed very well, I believe she will win on that basis. I will know for certain tomorrow. I won't be heartbroken (disappointed, maybe).... I will be resilient and watch for the next opportunity!

On another note, 4 days to payday. I vow to come here every day until then to firm up my resolve to change my behaviour and not gamble!!

Never stop believing girl 🙂 I think our posts crossed lol

You did what you can and should be proud of yourself. And yes, please stick around. ..and if it helps you try to keep coming back after payday. Always by ur side Carla

Stay safe 🙂

Hey girl I get paid Friday too, never comes soon enough does it? LOL guess for me It's not putting to much thought into that day and just making it like any other. Yeah the bills must get paid and food bought but other than that just another day. Sometimes we spend to much time over thinking sh-it and trying to get ahead of it all. Guess things just take care of themselves in time if ya let them. Guess just as It's not good to mess with mother nature, It's not good to mess with our destiny either.

Hope your day is good to ya.

Hi Carolyn, so great to see your becoming stronger and your focus in life is changing. No more self loathing but more positive thoughts about changing life for the better. I am trying to be with you all of the way. Keep it up my friend, hoping you get the new position. Dark Place

Thanks Sandra, Soul and DP.

As I predicted, the other gal got the position. I did feel a little more emotional than I thought I would upon hearing the news (but didn't let it show), but for a change, I dealt with it and managed my emotions in a more healthy way rather than running to my vices. There will be other opportunities in the future. For now, my focus will be no gambling.

Awe sorry to hear all that girl and yeah sh-it happens for a reason. Hell the boss was probably a real bit-ch and just saved ya the trouble of quiting. LOL Lol Lol yeah there's always a positive to feed off them negatives. Better days ahead I'm sure are awaiting ya girl.

Thanks, Soul.... the boss was a male, but yes, I did hear that he loves to "micromanage" so it was prob not a great fit anyway. I do believe things happen for a reason. Very strange couple of days. My friend's guitar teacher (who I met only once at a gathering at my friend's place a couple of months ago) is having a party and he asked her to bring me! I told her to tell him "thanks... but she's busy". Today, one of the young people I work with approached me and said that his dad (who I've never met) had a "weird" request... asked if I would go out with his dad for a beer (at which point my jaw dropped and he then said ...) OR out for tea... just to chat (supposedly, about our work... the dad is a paramedic and my field is very distantly related). I was so taken aback and didn't know what to say. I suddenly found myself saying yes, but only if the dad would agree to come to my organization as a guest speaker. Yikes!! What am I going to do?? I have to find a way to get out of this... diplomatically, as the kid is a sweetheart and I don't want to create any kind of negative situation.... oh, oh, oh..... not good! I have zero interest in dating anymore. Apologies to all you decent fellows out there, but I have completely given up on men and am resigned to living the rest of my life single. And not to sound too one-sided about that.... I'm not convinced that I would make a good partner to anyone either. What am I going to do?????

Well maybe he's just lonely and looking for some companionship. Ya know just go out and have some fun without any of the girlfriend & boyfriend thing. Who knows could be that turning point in life too cause yeah like I said things happen for a reason. Don't think going for a drink would be a bad thing and who knows ya could hit it off real well together.

Thanks, Soul. I just don't think it's a good idea, no matter which way I look at it. I'm messed up. I don't need to complicate my life. While I'm open to companionship/friendship, I still think I need to keep my work life and my personal life separate. I'm not sure what today will bring when I see this young man but even if it does end up as an opportunity to "go out" in whatever capacity, I will try to shut it down pretty quickly. Payday tomorrow and am trying to distract myself away from gambling thoughts. I will go for a drink after work and occupy myself with gardening this weekend. I have invited some friends for dinner next weekend so I can focus on that also. I used to have people over all the time and haven't done it in a long time. I can't gamble or I won't have money for flowers or groceries! I guess I will have to start cleaning my house this week too. Rainy, gloomy day. It's supposed to clear up, though, and it better or I won't be able to plant and that could be dangerous.

Yeah guess i can relate and the furthest thing on my mind is getting into any type of relationship. Guess I'd sooner be old and alone than old and miserable. LOL

Pay day for me tomorrow to and I just ain't putting much thought into it. Gonna pay the rent and bills, shop for a few things online for my boy and to Hell with the rest is the way I'm feeling now. Hell only got like 3 hours sleep in and gonna be a long night at work I think. LOL at least ya got some good plans going and yeah gambling will most assuredly put the screws to all of it if ya start. So be good and strong girl.

Hope ya got through pay day alright girl. I'm rooting for ya.