Diary of a familiar tale

Evening Buddy,

Sorry to hear of your slip. I think you need to be a bit easier on yourself though. You have made some great progress in the last few months. Long periods of time without a bet is to be commended. Also coming back here in the immediate wake of a slip takes some courage and determination.

You have the vast majority of the tools needed to stay bet free it's just a case of putting all the pieces together. You are still very much part of the thread and 50 days is more than achievable.

Stay strong my friend,

Flagg

hope things are feeling better with you today. life can get tough sometimes but were tougher. hang in there

Thanks for the support guys and gals, this site never ceases to amaze me really, people talk about the general public being unfriendly and selfish but gamcare really helps me to have faith with everyone out there.

My work, health, relationship, fitness and of course finances took an absolute hammering during my slip. Anyone thinking of 'just that 20 wont hurt' believe me it does and then some, we just can't stop.

Now I have strong 'aftershock' urges 'well I hit so low' it can't make a difference kind of thoughts....

BUT IT CAN, draw a line in the sand and say no, I am strong enough, I can beat this, I have the armour and weaponry and many people who are standing by me on the old gamcare battlefield.

Sorry for so many military analogies but just trying to knock so sense into that thick old skull of mine.......

Paulds - new note to self, Christmas is for my young family do not g"*&^!e it away.

hey we all got a few scares from the battle and they just make us stronger they do. were all working towards better days. some can do it the first go and some it takes a few more b**t whippings. were here to get each other threw no matter what the battle. stay strong and im with ya.

We do stand on the battlefield with you pauls cannons and massive big bombs at the ready to help you fight this.

Not even 1 pound my friend, GA say just dont place that first bet.. Its the one that gets you everytime, but you dont need me to tell you that you know already.

Keep fighting pauls.

Take care

Blondie

Hi Paul,

I was sorry 2 read about ur slip, well done 4 coming back here and starting again.... That takes a lot of strength!

U can do this 🙂

Stay strong and keep going 🙂

Hi Paul sorry 2 hear you had a slip but fair play 2 u 4 getting back on here and getting stuck back in that takes guts keep working away a day at a time at ur challenge of getting to jan 1st.

Unfortunately Paul u have to try and let the money go its gone please dont try chasing it we both know wer that will lead.

Slips knock the heart out of us but wer resislant us human beings and day by day u wil get ur heart and strength back.

U can still have a great xmas and i really hope u do

take care

Hi everyone, thanks for the support much appreciated.

Payday on Friday and as I wont get paid again before christmas this is the chance I have to pay some debts and buy presents for the family. Mess up on Friday and this Christmas will be like every other one for the past 18 years and I don't want that. All previous holiday periods with presents cobbled together, borrowed funds, still gambling and thinking about the results, ignored loved ones, and after everything a relief to get back to work in January.

I don't want that and this friday is going to be important in that respect. Just want to close my eyes on christmas eve and not stare into the distance unable to sleep, drinking too much etc etc.

Let this festive period be a happy one, you have the choice Paul don't blow it!

well thanks for the post to my thread and really like the thought of that doggie shock collar for us gamblers and gotta say i wouldn't mind being the first to try it out. lol

yeah guess i gotta look at every day as day one. seems if i look into the future it just blows up in my face. hell amazed i got a face left after so many explosions

oops guess i didnt read your post to your own thread before i tossed in my comment.

hope ya get through that pay day as planned. yeah nothing worse than feeling like a as-s on christmas day. i got pay day coming too this friday. guess this check is gone with the wind for bills but got another check coming that will be spent for christmas. guess i cant afford to come out looking like mrs clause but there will be gifts to be had. good luck on your pay day and beat it to them stores to shop for smiles instead of being beat.

hi Paul

Carl

Hi Paul,

Sorry to hear about your recent blip. If you can meet me back here. Post a time on my diary if you want me to get in touch. I feel like I have the tools to possibly help you, if you want. I have loyalty to you. I have really moved forward. You seem like a really decent guy. So read my last post. Give me a time after 11 tonight and I will send you an important link. If you are not interested then all the best for the future my friend.

Take care, Ian.

Hello mate hope is well. Hope ya got through pay day and are set up nicely for Christmas. Look forward to an update. I know your not a daily poster just wanted to offer my support. Take care.

well hope all is going good for you and that gambling bug squashed.

guess urges havent been to bad for me and still hanging in there.

yeah got till next friday before i get paid again and kinda looking forward to a little christmas shopping. do mostly cash for gifts so the shopping part shouldnt take to long. guess it just puts ya in the spirit a bit more going out and looking around. hope ya got all yours done and ready to kick back and enjoy the holidays.

stay strong, its the best present we can give to ourselves.

Day 6 gamble free

Starting again and once more along the painful journey from stupidville destination idiotown. As we travel along we can see evidence of the previous car crashes that are events in my life by the side of the road.

All I wanted was a christmas time of peace, tranquility and calm. It was not destined to be, no it wasn't destiny, I chose not to have stress free time. What part of my brain doesn't compute?

I feel determined that one day i will be able to live gamble free, just 24 hrs in a day have to be resisted and then tomorrow all over again.

I feel weak but know that I can do this, that is the difference from when I first started.

So sorry to those who take their time to offer me advice, I do listen it does help, I apologise.

Depressed now but it can't rain forever