hi paul,
long time no speak, cheers for the wishes, stick at what your doing, cos you heading in right direction
carl
Day 33 gamble free
Happy to pass a month, dont know if I am trying harder or have just made it hard for myself to gamble by putting the blocks in place.
Still have urges but not everyday, passing the bookies is always a pleasure, as I approach them they have a tractor beam the strength of a thousand space ships and yet when I pass the gust of contented air lifts me on to my tiptoes and I grow that little bit taller.
Stay safe and strong everyone and good luck with the week ahead
Day 34 gamble free
Original Target - 1460 days until debt free
current day 974 until debt free
Just happy to be debt free and alive, so much time, energy and money wasted, so many lies time to move forward.
Forward is the only way to move, I can't back even if I wanted to. Just for today I choose not to gamble, just for today I will smile as I lie in bed as another day has passed gamble free.
Paulds
Day 44 gamble free.
Good start (again) but there is no end, that is not meant in a depressing way, just that this is a journey where we all walk together, one day at a time with no fixed destination, along the way there are potholes to be avoided, we may trip and stumble sometimes due to our uneven souls, but there are plenty of kind people to help us up, dust off our knees and help us on our way.
Stay safe and strong this weekend
Paulds
Hi Paulds,
It's great to see you racking up the days. I hear you about the journey and I agree. We set small goals achieve them and then set another goal. What I have found along the way is alot of the simple things that I missed while gambling. For me it's great to be walking the along the path mindfully again. One day at a time. Have a great weekend Paulds. -joanxxx
Hey paulds,
fantastic !!
Your so right, there will always be people who will help us or who understand us and have walked that path, but in strength, unity and humility we continue carving our path to recovery.
Keep lifting yourself up everytime you walk past those bookies, i will keep my eyes out for someone floating past me lol.
enjoy your weekend
take care
blondie
Hi Paulds thanks for the support mate. Great to see you ticking along nicely with the big50 in sight. Keep it up we both know its what we want and what will make us happy and we also know what well make us stressed, angry, guilty etc. Keep on the right path. Have a great bank holiday.
day 59 gamble free,
every day the urges come every day they are batted away. In the beginning the bat was a flurry of movement as huge urges come flying hard and fast. Now they are still there every day but the are smaller and they do not fly at me as often as before.
Have a great weekend, I know I will
Paulds
Day 61 Gamble free,
still trucking along, slowly but carefully, day by day step by step.
Just for today I will not gamble, not a lifetime commitment, just for today.
Stay safe and strong
pauld
One day at a time. It's worked for so many before us and its working for you now. Keep it up mate and all the rewards of the non gambling life will be yours. A clearer head, less debts, more money, more time to. Have a great weekend.
Hey pauls,
Look at you day 61... brilliant.
One day at a time.... Step by step... Keep it simple..
A bit girly... but this is one of my recovery songs I sing and dance to it when i have urges lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWa5vE4MUpU
take care
Blondie
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Day 66 Gamble free
days until debt free 942
counting down from 1460
Thanks for popping by Blondie and Dave, together we can do this, step by step, bit by bit like the song.
I had to go somewhere today where I knew I had to pass umpteen bookies, where I had to carry my wallet, where I had money and time. All the danger points and as I got to the location I suddenly remembered I didn't have the urge to gamble, these places that were once unavoidable were passed without a thought.
Just a small battle won but it can be done, in the past I would have thought that this was impossible now I realise it is not.
I have been struggling recently with everything else going on in my life and really thought that why do I have to suffer like this I am trying, I am trying to be a good person, why do I feel so bad? then I realised, the reason that I feel so bad is because I am feeling again, I am becoming a normal person with these types of feelings rather than a lost empty shell of a man.
stay safe and strong
Well glad your getting in some good gamble free days, way to go. I cant seem to get past a pay day lately. Hell guess I been doing better with the quitting smoking than quitting gambling. And yeah them beers dont help with them urges thats for sure.
Well glad your getting in some good gamble free days, way to go. I cant seem to get past a pay day lately. Hell guess I been doing better with the quitting smoking than quitting gambling. And yeah them beers dont help with them urges thats for sure.
Day 72 Gamble free
Only target is today that is all, let's get through it gamble free
Slowly but surely the urges get less intense and happen less often. It would kill me now to go back gambling it really would. If feel stronger but must be on my guard. Especially with the new football season coming up. I still have imaginary bets with myself which I don't think is healthy but hey not everything can be perfect, not aiming for that just self improvement.
Paulds
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