Diary of boo radley

(Post by Boo radley, copied and pasted by admin at Boo radley's request):

Hello weekend. 

Firstly thank you admin at gamcare for extension on 24th to chat. Much appreciated. 

So let's get down to business.. 

Up early. ?

Had a brew and going to do my online banking stuff.. I keep transferring money to another account each day to make me conscious of what I use.

I don't need to shop today. 

Haven't had a quality sleep but think I'm just getting hyped about the season.. Silly stuff really. 

Aberdeen boo bedded herself down on two cushions in the settee. She really is a chugsy bugsy.

Outfit for the theatre this afternoon will be  my grey slim jeans.. Greylong sleeve top and blue check overshirt. Black boots. Something sparkly in the hair. Christmas earrings. Might go for pink lippy today.

I'll be honest thoughts of gambling are brewing in my mind.. But I've no time the next 3 days anyway so hope

to starve them out of my mind.. 

I'll be OK.. Its just the usual recovery testing stuff that comes along when I'm feeling happy and drifting into contentment.. The jigsaw is in a prominent place in the kitchen and I pass it in its unopened box reminding me that there are far better things to be done than gambling. Hey might bring the jig in to extra chat time 24th.. ???? Bound to be a crowd puller ???

All for now boo and snorry scottie boo ?

Thank you lovely admin 

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Evening diary. 

A nice afternoon. At the theatre. 

Set me up really for the evening. 

Chat was lovely  My friend who doesn't know the extent of my gambling has told me she went to casino the other night. Her hubby plays cards. She was telling me they have changed the car parking etc. Making it only members can park there.. Suits me I thought. But just had a fleeting vision of a slot. She doesn't always want to go and gets troubled by it but when I mention exclusion she gets defensive and says what if she wants to re. Join and the gambling regulations. So I just alter direction of conversation. 

I'm better of where I am.. In this place.. And realistically speaking it's the end of the day so my collected thoughts will before intense this time of night.. 

I'm staying this side of the track.. Putting a lid on gambling.. 

I'm going have early night and read and relax. Plans for next couple days taken care off.. 

Hope everyone has a settled sleep 

Bye for now boo 

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Absolutely right boo, better off this side of the track... You are amazing and doing well to match that. 

Sleep well I am off on ajourney for work xx

Drive carefully. Thank you 

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Goodmorning. 

Dark and dismal out. And feeling winter blues ish today. It will pass

I have a feeling of overwhelming Christmas stuff like it's been going on forever and it's just going to flick by in the blink of an eye and there will be an anti climax..

I have my santa dash today. Hence early Role call.. Little bit of a journey.. Then surely post run coffee. I do believe there are mince pies after. 

I want to start 2020 with another goal or ambition and no not thinking of gambling/anti gambling.

I don't want to have gambling or anything to do with it on my mind I want to go into 2020 and just live a life that doesn't involve urges and reminders and brain re. Training.. Like it's overstayed it's welcome in my life now.. I can only liken it to having an illness which debilates you and restricts you so much you feel Like you are going stir crazy or have cabin fever. Its nagging at me today.

Best get some food.. 

Feed a furry four legged friend then away to my friends where another friend will collect us.. 

Update about my little run later. 

Chat later and promise to be more chirpier 

Love the two boos ?

Enjoy the ? dash Boo x

Yes I will... I will run this little gremlin out of my mind today.. It really is being a menace. Like a boomerang the further I throw it the more determined if is to cine flying back at me.

I need a distraction from it. The run will do its job.. It will enable me to withdraw my feelings from gambling... 

Sleep well murlo ?????

Boo and boo ??

It is the strangest of addictions...

Are you all dressed up as ?? 

No sleep for me just yet. Will get some later hopefully.  Broke and dislocate d s finger last night so not long been home from having it put back. 

Oh no x poor digits xx yes santa top hat xxx

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Well after a sluggish in mood start. Am back from a trail Santa dash run.. Rejuvenated.. Get out there in fresh air.. What a tonic... ?

I can feel the new jig commencing. And some lovely TV. Tonight ?

I know there are a few on gamcare feeling under par. I dont want to you to feel like I am forgetting everyone's struggles but am enjoying every ounce of happiness I am being given at the moment. 

Till later boo ?

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So pleased you enjoyed your Santa dash, hope you are wearing your medal with pride ?. 

Revel in every moment of your happiness, you deserve to. There is nothing more motivating than seeing people regaining their self worth. Love you lots x

Your happiness is infectious and you made me smile. 

Bless ya x

Thank you two lovely ladies who I hope are both well after what the weekend has sent them both ?

Boo x

Well chat was good tonight. Just so wish everyone had company and caring and security... As much as I display levity on chat each one of you has found a place in my heart with your individual journey... Wanting to do more if only I could ?

I've had a nice weekend.. Fullfilling and now thoughts turn to Christmas. Not long now

I just know if I was God I wouldn't have invented gambling. That isn't blaming him though as I do have some faith.. But it would be one less evil in the world.. 

Going to watch this new scrooge thing On BBC.. Supposed to be dark.. Well can't say original was oh bon Ami.. 

Hope you all sleep well.. 

Murlo rest your fingers and eye. 

Drama  in my thoughts 

Lou... Keep going.. 

Yellows too. 

Keep popping into chat to us.  We all need each other xx 

Take care.. 

Boo xx

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