Diary of boo radley

Morning. 

Pitch outside still

Dog stretching but curling up again.. Still approaching spring so just have to be patient. 

Agenda for today. 

Routine stuff really. Clean, buy sister birthday gift. 

Cinema all being well at 2pm. 1917 I believe is the title. Mr b r will listen to footie while I am out. 

Other than that will have to make it up to make it more exciting.. 

No gambling ideas in my head at the mo. And to be honest I can't see that today would allow me the time anyway 

So have a good Saturday all. 

Boo and a slowly waking scottie boo ?

Night. 

Hope all OK post chat. 

I'm OK. 

Had urge to buy lottery ticket.. WHY... hubby's birthday and sometimes bought one put in card.. But I couldn't tonight because of my foolishness. Anyway also went to see my sister. (step sister) today. J had more of dad and she has a habit of saying things Like 'my dad would' ' and then corrects herself and says our dad. But I don't mind she says my dad. I really don't. I will have to tell her again about that. She has to be herself with me.. Me and dad.. Well it was as it was.. I love my sister that's all that matters.. He gave me one good thing in life..

Untouchables on.. One of my favourites.. Love this prohibition era. Capone and stuff 

Anyway as I said to mixer.. We are getting to know each other.. We enter chat as strangers.. Become friends and that bond grows. We will have fall outs and fall ins.. Its the nature of the human beast. Least that's my slant on it all.

Anyway.. Have a good sleep all and wake restored 

Night and bless boo ?????

Morning. 

Phew mixed sleep. Another vivid dream.. Which was just a crazy one. That said last night went to bed with few mixed emotions. Perhaps it's a reactionary thing. 

I've read some diaries. Mine seem to blend into insignificance ComPared to some..

I'm in and out all day today.. And I know we have extension to chat tonight but probably will be out as Mr b r birthday tomorrow so drinks are in order. Dinner have family stuff too.. Popular today. But I will try to tap in just to squeeze in a hello.

Going to grab some food now.. And I wish you all an easy a Sunday as it can be 

Scottie boo scoffing her chum. So she's happy 

Boo ????

There is nothing insignificant about your diary Boo. Sounds like you have a busy day ahead, enjoy it ?

Safe

journey.. Same back to you also ?

Boo ?

Dearest Boo I am of the opinion that no diary is insignificant.

I visit yours because it is a place of tenderness, warmth and humour whereas I might venture elsewhere on the diaries and be transfixed by the raw emotion bursting out from the hearts and minds of my fellow travellers. 

Other friends may have many questions to ask whilst learned and experienced travellers can give advice and encouragement to those who are feeling uncertain, confused or distressed.

And if one wishes to see a silly sorry soul slowly soldiering on, than they can say hello to me.

Wishing you a jolly couple of days celebrating hubby's birthday. I imagine you will get him a nice present but the most wonderful gift he could ever receive is the love of Boo Radley.

Stephen x 

Oh you keep on stealing my heart Stephen ♥️

Boo and scottie boo ?

Night.. 

My day has been good. I didn't want to run a 10k race today. I felt sick and nervous and didn't feel any love for running at all. Then my friend M called to pick me up and the in the sports hall pre race I saw W  and C. Who are just so pleasant and lovely how could I not join them.. I loved it. Had a carvery with daughter and her chap then friends for drinks.. Do I deserve this.. I don't know but I do know I appreciate it xx

Loved chat. And am conscious of new ones who need  all our support.. You will get it.. Stay with us x

I'm going call it a day now.. Watch tv and relax 

Night n bless all 

Boo 

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Wishing Mr BR a very happy birthday for tomorrow Boo xx

Thank you murlo 

Hello new day

It's nippy out. We ran out of milk. So been to shop and sorted.. Oh at last a brew...

Birthday boy opening cards.. ?

We have a funeral this morning but after that the day is ours. We won't do a great deal. Perhaps just dinner. 

Work tomorrow.. So make the most of last day off today.. 

I'm not feeling the love for a great deal at the moment. Really think winter is grinding away at me.. The more I let it happen the worse I will feel.. 

I'm approaching a good amount of time gf now.. And I think this counting each day helps but doesn't in both ways. I think what t I will do next week is count to the end of the month and then count fro. 1st to last day of each month. I can cope with small chunks of time. I'm like that with saving. I am better at small amounts than putting  larger sums away.

Anyway I'm rambling away about nothing much too important now so catch all in chat later.. 

Stay strong and united 

Bye for now boo

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Popped back in to write a bit more.. Suppose truth is I feel like opening up a bit. 

So truth is I do get a dip in mood winter time, halfway through salary month, although I hasten to add Im not struggling with cash. I never have its just that the importance of cash to me used to be how much I could or would put into a slot. I am developing a healthier respect for it now. 

I don't want to let the winter sluggish feeling peck at me because I know it will act as a trigger to go and find a casino, even a high Street one, where they give you weak Tea in  a plastic cup and then I lose or even win is nothing mega, and then I come out head down in case anyone shopping sees me who I know.. So I have talked myself down from that one... And I would never go online it holds no excitement or fascination for me.

So I'm dealing with is it winter blues or the devil on my shoulder grinning thinking I am weakening... 

Both I think. And emotions collide. Worry not I will not stray off straight and narrow today.. I will not gamble.i don't want to. But do want January to he over which I know is sinful wishing time away. I'm going to sit and write my today agenda. Attend the formentioned funeral. By which time it will be food time and the afternoon to sit back and settle to TV. Reading even jigsaw.

The devil will have to jog on today. When will this guy get the message he's wasting his time with me. I think that's another exhausting area. He keeps trying like one of those nasty pop ups on a pc... It does sap my strength..

A bit more time  needed to negotiate all these new feelings.. I feel like I have come a long way in a short time but equally like I'm running on the spot also.

It will resolve. It will get better. It will get easier. 

Thanks for reading

Boo ?????

Morning Boo,

I am glad you returned to your diary to reflect a little more. It is definitely ok to not feel ok. It is how you look after yourself to get you through the more difficult times that makes the difference. It sounds as though you have a potentially emotionally tough but busy day today. Promise me you will make some time for you as well. Get your medal our from yesterday, take a moment to think about all that it means and be proud of yourself. I am proud of you. Sending hugs xx

Thanks russ. It's all a fact finding mission and my mind gets in a scramble then it becomes logical. 

I will look at that one.. 

Bye for now 

Boo ?

Thanks murlo.. I'm feeling easier now. You know I sat watching play misty for me last   night and I thought that stalker of Clint Eastwood how annoying.

It's sat on my brain all night as that's what gamblingthoughts are

Pests and nuisances. So I think that as daft as it sounds has triggered this effect on me today. This it's all in your face stuff all the time. Perhaps a good scream would help.. 

But honestly I've rationalised it all and am ready to march and tackle the day ahead.

Thank you as always 

The two boos ????

Food for thought with your comment about annoying pop-ups on the PC. When they pop up, I click the x quick as a flash! I'm gonna call urges in my brain pop-ups from now on and endeavour to click the x real quick. ?

Have a great day Boo! Xxx